Another Fairytale

End of Semester 4

2012-02-13T19:50:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum. ^^

Its been quite long not having this slight happiness inside me. Alhamdulillah, Allah answered my prayers. A couple of days ago Ky Wong posted in my class fb page and announced that a company is willing to take students for ITP and FYP. The Industrial Project needs students to produce on a webpage using FLASH and PHP. Its a very good deal as we can finish our FYP fast, then focus on our final semester examinations. However, we had to finish it on time. Compared to other groups, we will be given only 7 months instead of 1 year. It sounds really challenging, but after talking to Ky Wong just now, we felt relieved. She was really impressed with what our course provide us as we have learnt quite a lot, in terms of web programming, fundamental electronics and more. And when she said the project is more on Flash, I was more relieved! ^^

So, now Sheema and I have a ITP placement, FYP project, and a supervisor. She said that if our work is good enough, it will be sent out to different companies. That makes me eager to start. Despite all the good things Ive mentioned, Im afraid we wont finish it on time. Hmm. Its okay, InsyaAllah can! Hehe.

Got myself a new boyfriend.<3

Recently, Ive completed my game assignment and uploaded in the free hosting web. If you want to play, click here! Dont laugh at it k? ^^

One More Chance

2012-01-13T23:56:00.002+08:00

Allah purposely sets you in a difficult situation. Because He knew you could break free from it. He just wants to help you build your Iman stronger and turn to him for help. Just hang in there, you know Allah heard you. Only Allah knows how miserable I feel today. One after another. Like every second, I felt like crying. Atleast, Im strong enough to hold back those tears till now. I cry like a crybaby, yes. I apologise to Sheema for making you face the lecturers alone just now. I feel really bad for that, forever. Sigh.

Like so, my fyp group is left with Sheema only and no lecturer to supervise us on any topic. Yeah. Two in a group, no supervisor, no group project. Although, the registration ends in about 4 more minutes, I am praying hard that on Monday, Sheema and I will get a Supervisor and the group project. I just hope Allah would give me and Sheema a chance. A chance to proof ourselves that we can actually ace it without relying on our supposedly-third member of the FYP group, whom technically ditched us hours ago. So, nevermind that. Im not going to blame it all at him for this. We are the stupid ones, i guess.

It has been a very very long and piss-ing day. But I guess Aimullah made me smile today. By having very late lunch at Delifrance and watched Sherlock Holmes 2. Thank you! ^^

Yesterday was Aimullah's 20th Birthday!! He fetch me from school at 5pm. But delayed till 6pm. Sigh, so so sorry that I made the birthday boy wait. :'( So he drove us to dine at Fika(Arab St). It was my first time eating there and I admit that it was pretty embarrassing because I couldnt finish the food! Im not going to say no more about this. Seriously, damn funny! Whats worse was when we walk back to his car, he was like "Eh! Where's my car keys!???" He immediately looked inside of his car through the car's window pane. Guess what? He left his car keys inside the car! I couldnt believe what he just did! He almost loses his car on his birthday, and I almost loses my laptop that contains everything! This is serious but instead, we laughed our ass off, got inside the unlock car, and quickly drive away! Hahaha. We didnt plan to go home yet. So, we reached Marina Barrage around 8pm. Spent maybe an hour and a half there, enjoying the breeze and so on. Then hang out at the playground near my place till 10.30pm. About there, I guess.

Even though there are quite a few unexpected things happened, I really enjoyed yesterday. It has been 2 months++ we didnt meet. And to have some things to catch up together with you again, makes me feel like there's no more sorrow felt. I thank you for being there for me always. I thank you for taking care of me well. I'll always cherish the great moments we had together! I will miss you for being away. May Allah be with you always.♥♥♥

Allah Rabbal Baraya ^^

2012-01-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

♥

Spark ^^

2012-01-08T22:23:00.005+08:00

Hello Readers. How are you? Im.. alhamdulillah. Tomorrow may be the happiest or the worst day for some of you whom will be getting your Olevel results. Especially to Aseenah, I hope you'll achieve the best of what you've done, till this far. Insya Allah. It still remains a vivid moment.

Every graduaters sat in the hall. I remembered Eefah and Ain's faces. We all faced down. Waited with patience but eagerness, beyond nervous! I was shaking in my shoes when I sat infront of Ms Diana. My palms were too cold, even after a few rubs and blows. And when she held me my result slips, I couldnt help but smiled. I cant remember what she said to me that moment, because I was too engrossed upon receiving the results. I examined each of my subject results. I was really happy with my Math. Ive gotten an A, two Bs, and 2 Cs. When I get back to my seat, I simply cried. Really, its because of joy. Joy of 'The End' in secondary school. But it is sad to reach home and accepting the fact that none of my close friends, except for Iliyas, made through to Poly. I remembered Eefah's tears. I felt bad for those who didnt make it or get what they wanted. :'(

Okay, so good luck to everyone receiving your result slips. Dont worry. There's always a way to make things better, its not the end of the world. Its a new beginning, so be brave and think positive. Moreover, i hope my friends that will be graduating in ITE will continue their studies in Poly. Even though how much I hated to see SP getting crowded everyday, I really hope to see them in Poly.

My second year in Poly is ending soon. A new ending, and a new beginning again, huh? Insya Allah, I will be the first daughter to get in University. That's the plan from the start but, hais. Takpe, Insya Allah I can. I'll be busy with my Final Year Project. I know Im risking myself to partner with Sheema and Andes. I somehow love working with them. They do have low self-esteem, always saying the negative things, but I believe in them. I know what they are capable of. They just need a little push. Insya Allah, this will be a great teamwork. I will keep Andes's words. We will get to Spinnovex!

Put your trust in Allah, after making your decision. Insya Allah. Takecare. ^^

Independence from Imperfection

2011-12-26T20:34:00.001+08:00

Yesterday had a quick Sunday at Changi Beach with family. Gosh, I miss the sea! Too bad i didnt bring extra clothing. Sigh.
Okay, a quick update on myself during this short busy holiday. My mum and I had been trying to cook a perfect Macaroni and Cheese recipe. We are still working on the cheesy part though. We have cooked it twice so far, and it seems that the cheese is still a little bit 'hard'. Not the texture we wanted. Well, since my aunt gave us a whole plastic bag full of macaroni, no harm trying, yeah? And about my assignments, I am finally on it. I have started it but not much. Heheh. Well atleast I am at somewhere now. And also, ive been worried on my itp and fyp group.

As for itp, ive picked two places listed in blackboard. Sheema and I thought of just trying at NTUC Fariprice but Udin (SPB) whom had his experience there, suggested that it will be good if we assign to a workplace that can relate to the course im studying. But my course is so boring! That is the problem. Hmm. However, I guess it will be good for me to stay with what blackboard had offered to us. InsyaAllah, I will find the way. ^^

"Don't feel bitter that people remember you only when they need you. Feel priviledged that you are like a candle. You come to their mind when they're in the dark."

Without words

2011-12-20T19:58:00.001+08:00

I keep humming to this song. I guess its not just the vocal, but the strong lyrics that makes everything so moving. The drama is really sad and funny at the same time. Plus, Jang Geun Suk, Park Shin Hye, lee Hong Gi are all so cute and, Jung Yong Hwa is handsome indeed! ^^

2011-12-17T21:03:00.001+08:00

2011-12-17T20:21:00.002+08:00

I dont want to do this anymore :'(

Wisdom

2011-12-13T00:16:00.004+08:00

Thank you for all those messages in my tagboard. Really, its appreciated. But i would also appreciate if you dont spam and put all those "adverts" by saying 'Follow me Follow You' kind of thing. And you know, the problem is its hard to tell whether if the tag really means something. Something really honest. Thank you for the comments, regarding about my posts, my blog design, though. Which, i dont think my story isnt that exciting, and this blogskin is copied and paste from blogskins.com. So, dont give that fake-or-not credit comments to me. Hmm.

I dont feel so good. I feel like bursting into tears. But everything is like so numb already. Wait, if its numb, i wont be feeling anything right? Sigh. You know, i hope that after going through all this pain, I will be stronger. I hope i will stay strong. But sometimes you just want to drop to your knees and cry it out. Cry for all the regrets, the mistakes, the sins, and most importantly for being the most stupid/inconsiderate/hesitant-idiot behaviour of mine! Sometimes I wish I would have done that, i would have done this. But, at the end of the day, nobody actually cares! See, how stupid this sounds! And the loneliness I had this time doesnt go away, no matter how much i tuck myself in with foods, no matter how many hours i spent on playing computer games, doing stupid stuffs. I need a listening ear. But when a friend who wants me talk it out, i.. just cant. Why? Biarlah hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu. Sigh. I kept saying that, but i am doing nothing to make myself feel better. InsyaAllah, there is a way.

Its december holidays. 6 weeks break, if Im not wrong. Tomorrow I guess is the official 'enjoy moment'. Im having lunch with classmates at Sakura Buffet, @ Clementiwoods. Then i guess, holidays done. Im down with major assignments yet to be completed. A lot of planning. A lot to buck up on. I do not want to feel anymore regrets, if thats possible. And so i guess, this holiday seems to be another boring holiday. No meet-ups, no family plannings, and please dont tell me theres no training as well?! I'll rot at home, playing Sims all day, i tell you! Sigh. How sad. May Allah shower me with wisdom, intelligence and strength in my Iman. And may Allah bless you. Amin.

Wassalam.

Hmmm

2011-12-08T17:23:00.000+08:00

Hey ho Amigos! ^^

Alhamdulillah, done with Mid Semester Test papers. I hope, somehow, it will help in my gpa. I studied like as if its the semester examinations. I remembered, on tuesday night, i studied till 2am. And im not used to studying late night. But sure, the eyebags kinda worth it now; that i am able to manage the papers. ^^

Ah, i miss blogging. Oh yes, my parents are back! I am reallly thankful to Allah. They are alright, and now, everyday are served with good foods! Heheh. Nom Nom Nom. With all the stress, and good foods. ape lagi, gemok uh!

Chin Up

2011-11-27T14:44:00.005+08:00

No matter how many people let me down, I know You never will.
No matter how many people hurt me, I know You never would.
No matter how lonely I feel, I know You’re always there.
When no one understands me, I know You do.
When I lose hope, You remind me of You.
When I feel like giving up, You give me the strength to keep going.
When I feel lost, You show me the way.
No one can help me but You.
No one can soften my heart but You.
No one can love me as much as You love me.
No one cares about me more than You do.
I love You, ya Allah. More than anything in this whole world.

2011-11-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

where's my music??!

So Far So Good

2011-11-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

Hello again. I feel very.. empty lately. I may look like im alright. But I feel like a.. snail? Hiding myself in my shell and hopes that no one crush on me. Still, I feel crush. Tired. Exhausted. Sometimes tired to face reality. Tired to see annoying attitudes. And tired of feeling so shitty sometimes! Can i just have my fantasy land already? You know, I hardly gotten sweet dreams. When was the last time I have a nice, relaxing, unforgettable dream? Brain, please be more creative.

Forget about that, its the sixth week of Year2 Sem2. Its weird that i am actually counting school weeks. I've never did. Probably because my parents are away, and im just counting when they will be back.

So, module quizzes has already begun. Math PBL and mini assignments will be given out this week. So week 7 and 8 will be an extreme week for most of SP students. Week 8 is our MST, already. Sigh, time flies fast even when you're not having fun. But okay, honestly speaking, i think i kinda like my attitude these few days. I think im more hardworking. In a sense that I really studied(the right way) for my quizzes, lab tests. So far so good. I managed to overcome fear/scary/nerves on the hated modules. Though, im still worried for the module: Flash. I hope i can finish my lab test within the time given.

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Oh! You know about the 26th Sea Games thingy? Inspired! I hope one day i could represent Singapore for Womens' Bowling Team. Hahah! Speaking of which, im really missing my bowling ball! Last thursday's training, i only got to train for 10 mins! Its a big deal! I was really looking forward for the training. Only 10mins because my bowling ball finger insert flew out, so i cant play! Grrr. This means i have to "repair" and bring my ball home. So yesterday, sweet Eugene accompanied me to jalan pisang. So that i could repair my two balls (the other ball, bought from Ben Tan for $50) and Eugene can buy his bowling stuff. My budget was like 100, and Alhamdulillah. Total cost was $62. I was really touched by Eugene, seriously. Because there is some racist/individual/couple issues that i sense, happening in our bowling club. Its pretty cool what Eugene did.

So far, I think my bowling has improved. I hardly get below 100. Thanks to coach's hand guard. My swing, my hooking really has improved. Alhamdulillah. :D Sho Happy! My avg is now 147. Hopefully can make it to 180 plus soon. Wish me luck! Cheers! xoxo

Ps, thats my irritating smile.
Ps (x2), i cooked Taugeh Goreng and it tasted awesome! :D

Salam rindu

2011-11-07T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hello Readers! How you doing? Its been a week now that my parents are away to serve one of Allah's call. Alhamdulillah, they have called once a while to ask our conditions here. Alhamdulillah too that they have successfully reached Muzdalifah and probably have finish 'melontar jamrat Aqabah' (tahlul awal) Mabit at Mina yesterday.

I am so happy for them. It has been their lifetime wish to go there for Haji / Umrah. And their call were shockingly fast and fortunate. You know about the rejected visa haji going on on the papers? They were the lucky ones. All praises to Allah. However, I feel such yearning. So this is how it feels like to be apart from both parents. I pray that Allah will preserve their health, let them have a long lasting healthy life ahead. Amin.

I admit, no one does the housework better than my mum does! And i admit, it is really tiring to do work after work, and yet your siblings keep messing up the place that you've cleaned/groomed. Sickening tau! Its been a week, and i have learnt quite alot. Housework, trust, discipline.. of course, not that I dont know/have them. -.- I could see its improving now. Because in this case, you have to be independent. Its a melancholy week, but there is wisdom behind every difficulties and lesson to learn everyday. All praises to Allah, to have us experience these things at this age. We are fortunate because at least we know that they will return after performing Haji. Amin. I have uploaded the pictures we took @airpot terminal 2 at FB.

2011-10-25T23:03:00.001+08:00

"
✐ Selepas Malaikat Israfil meniup sangkakala (bentuknya seperti tanduk besar)
yang memekakkan telinga, seluruh makhluk mati kecuali Izrail dan beberapa malaikat yang lain.
Selepas itu, Izrail pun mencabut nyawa malaikat yang tinggal dan akhirnya nyawanya sendiri.

✐ Selepas semua makhluk mati, Tuhan pun berfirman mafhumnya "Kepunyaan siapakah
kerajaan hari ini?" Tiada siapa yang menjawab. Lalu Dia sendiri menjawab dengan keagunganNya
"Kepunyaan Allah Yang Maha Esa lagi Maha Perkasa." Ini menunjukkan kebesaran dan
keagunganNya sebagai Tuhan yg Maha Kuasa lagi Maha Kekal Hidup, tidak mati.

✐ Selepas 40 tahun, Malaikat Israfil a.s. dihidupkan, seterusnya meniup sangkakala untuk
kali ke-2, lantas seluruh makhluk hidup semula di atas bumi putih, berupa padang Mahsyar
(umpama padang Arafah) yang rata tidak berbukit atau bulat seperti bumi.

✐ Sekelian manusia hidup melalui benih anak Adam yg disebut "Ajbuz Zanbi" yang berada
di hujung tulang belakang mereka. Hiduplah manusia umpama anak pokok yang kembang
membesar dari biji benih.

✐ Semua manusia dan jin dibangkitkan dalam keadaan telanjang dan hina. Mereka tidak rasa
malu kerana pada ketika itu hati mereka sangat takut dan bimbang tentang nasib dan
masa depan yang akan mereka hadapi kelak.

✐ Lalu datanglah api yang berterbangan dengan bunyi seperti guruh yang menghalau manusia,
jin dan binatang ke tempat perhimpunan besar. Bergeraklah mereka menggunakan
tunggangan (bagi yang banyak amal), berjalan kaki (bagi yang kurang amalan) dan berjalan
dengan muka (bagi yang banyak dosa). Ketika itu, ibu akan lupakan anak, suami akan lupakan
isteri, setiap manusia sibuk memikirkan nasib mereka.

✐ Setelah semua makhluk dikumpulkan, matahari dan bulan dihapuskan cahayanya, lalu
mereka tinggal dalam kegelapan tanpa cahaya. Berlakulah huru-hara yang amat dahsyat.

✐ Tiba-tiba langit yang tebal pecah dengan bunyi yang dahsyat, lalu turunlah malaikat
sambil bertasbih kepada Allah SWT. Seluruh makhluk terkejut melihat saiz malaikat yang
besar dan suaranya yang menakutkan.

✐ Kemudian matahari muncul semula dengan kepanasan yang berganda. Hingga dirasakan
seakan-akan matahari berada sejengkal dari atas kepala mereka. Ulama berkata jika matahari
naik di bumi seperti keadaannya naik dihari Kiamat nescaya seluruh bumi terbakar, bukit-bukau
hancur dan sungai menjadi kering. Lalu mereka rasai kepanasan dan bermandikan peluh
sehingga peluh mereka menjadi lautan. Timbul atau tenggelam mereka bergantung pada
amalan masing-masing. Keadaan mereka berlanjutan sehingga 1000 tahun.

✐ Terdapat satu telaga kepunyaan Nabi Muhammad SAW bernama Al-Kausar yang
mengandungi air yang hanya dapat diminum oleh orang mukmin sahaja. Orang bukan mukmin
akan dihalau oleh malaikat yang menjaganya. Jika diminum airnya tidak akan haus selama-lamanya.
Kolam ini berbentuk segi empat tepat sebesar satu bulan perjalanan. Bau air kolam ini lebih
harum dari kasturi, warnanya lebih putih dari susu dan rasanya lebih sejuk dari embun.
Ia mempunyai saluran yang mengalir dari syurga.

✐ Semua makhluk berada bawah cahaya matahari yang terik kecuali 7 golongan
yang mendapat teduhan dari Arasy. Mereka ialah:

ⅰ- Pemimpin yang adil.
ⅱ- Orang muda yang taat kepada perintah Allah.
ⅲ- Lelaki yang terikat hatinya dengan masjid.
ⅳ- Dua orang yang bertemu kerana Allah dan berpisah kerana Allah.
ⅴ- Lelaki yang diajak oleh wanita berzina, tetapi dia menolak dengan berkata "Aku takut pada Allah".
ⅵ- Lelaki yg bersedekah dengan bersembunyi (tidak diketahui orang ramai).
ⅶ- Lelaki yang suka bersendirian mengingati Allah lalu mengalir air matanya kerana takutkan Allah.

✐ Oleh kerana tersangat lama menunggu di padang mahsyar, semua manusia tidak tahu
berbuat apa melainkan mereka yang beriman, kemudian mereka terdengar suara
"pergilah berjumpa dengan para Nabi". Maka mereka pun pergi mencari para Nabi.
Pertama sekali kumpulan manusia ini berjumpa dengan Nabi Adam tetapi usaha mereka
gagal kerana Nabi Adam a.s menyatakan beliau juga ada melakukan kesalahan dengan
Allah SWT. Maka kumpulan besar itu kemudiannya berjumpa Nabi Nuh a.s., Nabi Ibrahim a.s.,
Nabi Musa a.s., Nabi Isa a.s. (semuanya memberikan sebab seperti Nabi Adam a.s.)
dan akhirnya mereka berjumpa Rasullullah SAW. Jarak masa antara satu nabi dengan
yang lain adalah 1000 tahun perjalanan.

✐ Lalu berdoalah baginda Nabi Muhammad SAW ke hadrat Allah SWT. Lalu diperkenankan
doa baginda.

✐ Selepas itu, terdengar bunyi pukulan gendang yang kuat hingga menakutkan hati
semua makhluk kerana mereka sangka azab akan turun. Lalu terbelah langit, turunlah
arasy Tuhan yang dipikul oleh 8 malaikat yang sangat besar (besarnya sejarak
perjalanan 20 ribu tahun) sambil bertasbih dengan suara yang amat kuat sehingga
'Arasy itu tiba dibumi.

✐ 'Arasy ialah jisim nurani yang amat besar berbentuk kubah (bumbung bulat)
yang mempunyai 4 batang tiang yang sentiasa dipikul oleh 4 malaikat yang besar dan
gagah. Dalam bahasa mudah ia seumpama istana yang mempunyai seribu bilik yang
menempatkan jutaan malaikat di dalamnya. Ia dilingkungi embun yang menghijab
cahayanya yang sangat kuat.

✐ Kursi iaitu jisim nurani yang terletak di hadapan Arasy yang dipikul oleh 4 malaikat
yang sangat besar. Saiz kursi lebih kecil dari 'Arasy umpama cincin ditengah padang.
Dalam bahasa mudah ia umpama singgahsana yang terletak dihadapan istana.

✐ Seluruh makhluk pun menundukkan kepala Allah kerana takut. Lalu dimulakan
timbangan amal. Ketika itu berterbanganlah kitab amalan masing-masing turun dari bawah
Arasy menuju ke leher pemiliknya tanpa silap dan tergantunglah ia sehingga mereka
dipanggil untuk dihisab. Kitab amalan ini telah ditulis oleh malaikat Hafazhah / Raqib dan 'Atid / Kiraman Katibin.

✐ Manusia beratur dalam saf mengikut Nabi dan pemimpin masing- masing. Orang kafir
dan munafik beratur bersama pemimpin mereka yang zalim. Setiap pengikut ada tanda
mereka tersendiri untuk dibezakan.

✐ Umat yang pertama kali dihisab adalah umat Nabi Muhammad SAW, dan amalan yang
pertama kali dihisab adalah solat. Sedangkan hukum yang pertama kali diputuskan
adalah perkara pertumpahan darah.

✐ Apabila tiba giliran seseorang hendak dihisab amalannya, malaikat akan mencabut kitab
mereka lalu diserahkan, lalu pemiliknya mengambil dengan tangan kanan bagi orang
mukmin dan dengan tangan kiri jika orang bukan mukmin.

✐ Semua makhluk akan dihisab amalan mereka menggunakan satu Neraca Timbangan.
Saiznya amat besar, mempunyai satu tiang yang mempunyai lidah dan 2 daun. Daun
yang bercahaya untuk menimbang pahala dan yang gelap untuk menimbang dosa.

✐ Acara ini disaksikan oleh Nabi Muhammad SAW dan para imam 4 mazhab untuk menyaksikan
pengikut masing-masing dihisab.

✐ Perkara pertama yang diminta ialah Islam. Jika dia bukan Islam, maka seluruh amalan baiknya
tidak ditimbang bahkan amalan buruk tetap akan ditimbang.

✐ Ketika dihisab, mulut manusia akan dipateri, tangan akan berkata- kata, kaki akan
menjadi saksi. Tiada dolak-dalih dan hujah tipuan. Semua akan di adili oleh Allah Ta'ala
dengan Maha Bijaksana.

✐ Setelah amalan ditimbang, mahkamah Mahsyar dibuka kepada orang ramai untuk menuntut
hak masing-masing dari makhluk yang sedang dibicara sehinggalah seluruh makhluk berpuas
hati dan dibenarkannya menyeberangi titian sirat.

✐ Syafaat Nabi Muhammad SAW di akhirat :

ⅰ- Meringankan penderitaan makhluk di Padang Mahsyar dengan mempercepatkan hisab.
ⅱ- Memasukkan manusia ke dalam syurga tanpa hisab.
ⅲ- Mengeluarkan manusia yang mempunyai iman sebesar zarah dari neraka.
(Semua syafaat ini tertakluk kepada keizinan Allah SWT.)

✐ Para nabi dan rasul serta golongan khawas juga diberikan izin oleh Tuhan untuk memberi
syafaat kepada para pengikut mereka. Mereka ini berjumlah 70 000. Setiap seorang dari
mereka akan mensyafaatkan 70 000 orang yang lain.

✐ Setelah berjaya dihisab, manusia akan mula berjalan menuju syurga melintasi jambatan sirat.
Siratul Mustaqim ialah jambatan (titian) yang terbentang dibawahnya neraka. Lebar jambatan
ini adalah seperti sehelai rambut yang dibelah tujuh dan ia lebih tajam dari mata pedang.
Bagi orang mukmin ia akan dilebarkan dan dimudahkan menyeberanginya.

✐ Fudhail bin Iyadh berkata perjalanan di Sirat memakan masa 15000 tahun. 5000 tahun menaik,
5000 tahun mendatar dan 5000 tahun menurun. Ada makhluk yang melintasinya seperti
kilat, seperti angin, menunggang binatang korban dan berjalan kaki. Ada yang tidak dapat
melepasinya disebabkan api neraka sentiasa menarik kaki mereka, lalu mereka jatuh ke dalamnya.

✐ Para malaikat berdiri di kanan dan kiri sirat mengawasi setiap makhluk yang lalu. Setiap
1000 orang yang meniti sirat, hanya seorang sahaja yang Berjaya melepasinya. 999
orang akan terjatuh ke dalam neraka.

Rujukan:
Kitab Aqidatun Najin karangan Syeikh Zainal Abidin Muhammad Al-
Fathani. Pustaka Nasional Singapura 2004.

☞ Jika sekiranya kalian ingin mengumpul saham akhirat, sampaikanlah ilmu ini kepada sahabat² yang lain. Sepertimana sabda Rasulullah SAW:
❝ Sampaikanlah pesananku walaupun satu ayat. ❞
Sesungguhnya apabila matinya seseorang anak Adam itu, hanya 3 perkara yang akan dibawanya bersama :

① Sedekah/amal jariahnya.
② Doa anak²nya yang soleh.
③ Ilmu yang bermanfaat yang disampaikannya kepada orang lain.

"

Laugh is my Medicine |

2011-10-21T22:35:00.001+08:00

How are you readers?
The first week of school is down. And honestly, Im loving it. No classes on Mondays. Feels awesome. :D
Only this term, im a little worried for certain modules im taking. Im studying Flash! Ive always wanted to learn flash but its the assignment that im afraid i cant handle it. And the other module: Network Server Management! Sigh. InsyaAllah, i can do this. I am aiming for full gpa from now on. I messed up my last sem's gpa. So, hmm.. InsyaAllah.

Sorry for blabbering about my school stuff everytime i started blogging. Oh! Last wednesday, before i had dinner celebration for my dad's birthday at Bukit Batok, I actually went to Pioneer! Went there to meet up with my sisters. And just when i saw the school, memories just keep rolling back. Hahah!
The gate, where i panicked when i got late. Canteen tables for all clicks. I saw K&H Ensemble's noticeboard. And i saw our 2007 SYF photo. MasyaAllah, i look so talented! :P hhahaha! I was at the front with Cydney, Raihan, Eefah. Aseenah, Siti Amirah, and Yi kang is at the back playing harmonica 2 (role). Hahah! The members now as ive seen on other photos are mostly chinese. I bet there are no more malays. Haha, and when I saw the rugby boys in the canteen, thought of how much i liked Nash and his sport before. I sat in the canteen only, by the way. But all the memories, in the classroom, slipped at the staircase, running away from discipline master, mocking the principle, during p.e lesson. And the one that really crack me up was MrPang and his 'shy moments'. I blogged about it last few years ago. Oh, here it is:

Sujatha: Cher, during the sports day, you wear sunglasses very hot lah!

Mr Pang: Yah, during sports day, the weather was hot what.

[he heard sujatha wrongly-.-]

Sujatha: no, i say you very hot when wearing sunglasses.

Mr Pang: Ouh,... but i said that the weather was hot. [smiled]

Me & Eefah: ELEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHH!!blushing alrdy!!

[padahal die da phaiseh and blushing!]

And the funny part was he played around with the screen projector to hide his blush! Hahaha! Kekek! Sigh. This is why i love blog. Archive. So, im sure my girlfriends miss those times too. We'll keep in touch eh?

So, im enjoying my Poly life pulak. Even though, i always kena bully by Mr Andes Ritchmont Tan and sheema and wei sheng and jit! Grr. I will kena them back one day, i tell you. I have not really introduced them properly here, havent i? Damn. I'll do a quick one. Andes, 24 went through NS (he brags about it all the time!) Sheema, 20. Went through ITE before stepping poly. Her driving test was the most epic! Mount curb (unsure of spelling, teehee) ! Wei Sheng, 19; which we created the AWS close-group, to "get away" from him. This is confidential tau! Hahah! Jit 18, the said so to be the joker.Well, there is sandra 19 and shaojuan 18. Whom i am competing my gpa with. So far, Shao Juan is leading. Hmm. InsyaAllah. Faith! Okay now, gtg do some gif pics! Takecare. ^^

2011-10-18T15:12:00.002+08:00

“When you have taken a decision, put your trust in Allah.” (Surah Imran 3: 159)

Just lovely |

2011-10-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

Happy Twenty-First!

2011-10-10T01:59:00.000+08:00

Oh, what the hell with the previous post right? Technically, yesterday was kakak's 21st birthday! And it was awesome!! We celebrated @PizzaHut. Ordered the food in before kakak and Fhaz came from USS. Well, it was about 6pm when she came. And everything was already in place. The food, drinks everything. Well, we ate and Im still panting for the taste of the sweet & spicy drumlets! Hehe. Well, after gulping down the food, we call out to the waitresses to bring in the birthday cookie - cake. Hahaha! And let me tell you, I think the cookie look fantastic! Because i thought that it would come messy with 4 colours! Hahah! Well, there you go. Nights. Bowling tomorrow! ♥ i hope i can bowl with you some day, again. :(

Semoga dipanjangkan umur dan diberi hidayah dan taufiq

setiap hari. Semoga berjaya di dunia dan akhirat..

Love you ♥

2011-09-28T23:09:00.003+08:00

Ive gotten my semester 3 results. And I am still disappointed.

Alhamdulillah, no retaking of any module. However, I cant stop worrying for the next semester. Mobile Web. Sigh. May Allah give me strength to cope.

Sigh, feels kinda lonely these few days. Been doing more of thinking than talking, lately. Been emo for 2hours a day atleast since holiday starts. Well, an hour trip to workplace and another hour to reach home after work. Getting sick and tired of it. Its okay, tomorrow is thursday. So there will be 3 more days to no-more-work day!! ^^

Friday

2011-09-17T01:10:00.001+08:00

Again, i missed blogging. Time now is 1:00AM sharp, Saturday. Just one more day lefft to afternoon shift. And starting on next week onwards, it will be morning shifts for me. I dont know if Im suppose to be happy or devastated on that matter. Because I would have to wake up earlier than subuh timing to be able to catch my bus. Hmm. InsyaAllah, wont be late.

Today I felt peace, visiting Masjid for Maghrib during break time at work. But I was in a hurry, so it didnt really lasts long. But Alhamdulillah. Praying at workplace, tak khusyuk. And i dont know why am i a tyoe of person that likes to think berwas-was. Always 50-50. Am i that fickle minded? Tak suke tau! Hope my ibadah will be accepted though. Amin Amin!
And today, it was pretty tiring because only 2 people worked on closing shift. Hais. Wait, here i am just played Tetris Battle and blogging, and not listening to mum (to go sleep now). Ape punye anak la aku ni. K then.

Giant

2011-09-12T08:53:00.001+08:00

Hello! Its been so very long not updating my blog. I kinda miss you bloggy. I noticed i didnt upload photos or share with ya'll how was my 18th birthday. (: I had a little birthday surprise which was my aunts, uncles, and friends coming over to my house and celebrated with me. We break fast together and solat maghrib together. What I like most was the sembahyang ramai-ramai part. These are the photos! ^^

- - - - -

Ive not been doing anything much for this vacation period, yknow. The thought of everyday bowling, tk la kesampaian. This work Im doing now is more tiring then what I expected. Especially work on the afternoon shift. 1430 to 2230. Gaji pon tk la seberapa. But nevermind, this money Im getting is as so for me to apply for driving license. Da besar dah anak mak.(Padahal masih kecil! -.-) Hahaha. Hmm, I want to create tumblr uh, can? To like 'showcase' my photos. Like what Nafisah said, mungkin rezeki boleh datang from there. ^^

Recently; finally went out Raya with The 80s - Siti Nurain, Sharifah Fairuza, Nadira, Nafisah Saifuddin & Aseenah Bee. It was awesome! Even though we only went visitings about 4 houses, we did have some kick-ass time! We've laughed so much, and the heels-complain-moments, and the close-up pictures, and Ain's masalah is actually everyone's masalah! hahahah! I seriously miss those feeling. Macam mimpi, dapat feel macam tuh lagi (;

And this year, managed to jalan raya with family only twice. Tak rasa sangat kemeriahan Raya tahun ini. );

Short update

2011-08-10T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hello. How are you? I am stressing up right now. Only Allah knows how stress am I because of this packed assignments given at one shot. However, I have to thank Allah for the things that is done. 3 assignments done. Left with ssd; which i dont think my team and i are going anywhere into it, Iwgd (photoshop module) which i think will be doing it last minute. Currently doing my gems assignment that is dued last wednesday and so, trying to finish it by tomorrow. With addition, doing a little of math revision. I am having open book math quiz tomorrow. Sigh. And the week after next week will be our end of module examinations. Good luck to me finding time to study.

And Polite has just ended last Saturday. My heart pain to see everyone having fun playing and doing their best to win the title this year. On the other hand, I think overall Team SP Girls did better this year compared to the Boys. We only won the Singles; at least that was the last news Ive heard so far. Throughout watching them play at Safra Yishun, I was disappointed at myself. I want to feel the pressure and the adrenaline rush again on the alley, not just sitting and watch. InsyaAllah, I can make it next year.

Coach will have faith in me if I have faith in myself.

2011-07-27T08:41:00.003+08:00

I want to say, express it out..
but i simply can't.
What more can i do? I have been keeping this feeling for 2 months and sometimes i just want to let it out and let it go, but i cant. There is always something that held me back. I dont want it to happen. I dont want to lose you.

Hijab.

2011-07-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

It was on the 19th October 2010, that I have decided to wear hijab, officially.

Until today, I am proud of myself to be wearing it because of Allah, and not because of what people would think of me. Alhamdulillah. Wearing hijab has helped me in every different ways of understanding Aurat and how it helped me to strengthen my iman. Hijab is like a start, to start my day. Like solat. Its the main pillars in iman.

Looking at myself in the mirror with my hijab reminded me of Allah; reminded me of the reasons why I am given a life. To worship You. I admit, before i started to wear hijab, i got really distracted with the world out there so much that i disobey His orders to pray five times a day. Forgive me, Allah.

Until one day in school, a friend asked me if i would like to join her for prayers. I simply gave an excuse. Quite a few times she asked me again. And i gave excuses, after excuses. Astaghfirullah. I felt bad afterwards. Felt bad to her and especially to Allah. I didnt know that there's musollah in SP. Until one day, when she asked me again, i decided to join her. And i thought the musollah is in a room somewhere, but in my astonishment, it was at the top level staricase way. MasyaAllah. Hijab makes me feel closer to Allah. I will continue to maintain to be a good person. InsyaAllah, amin.

He is the Creator.

2011-07-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

"O servant, you have done these things on these particular days.. But I have concealed them in your earthly life
and I forgive you these deeds today.."

Allahuakhbar.
I hope on the day I am facing my death, I wouldnt be scared but instead,
to be in great pleasure to be meeting Allah real soon.
Amin ya rabbal'alamin.

League

2011-07-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

I know i said i will be okay if im not selected to represent Polite this year. But truth is im quite disappointed, the fact that i will not be playing. i always tell myself, nevermind, its okay. its during ramadhan anyway. maybe its for my own good, that way. but seriously, by not playing this year really means alot to me. because next year, i will have lesser chance to be playing for Polite. due to major exams, assignments that will be assigned, my attendance will be affected for cca. sigh.

Ramadhan is comingggggggggg! Cant wait also.
And and, i really want to watch harry potter. with you, can?

What a Hottiie

2011-07-07T09:54:00.004+08:00

A'ah sioool! HEHEHE.

If we hold on together

2011-07-05T15:29:00.004+08:00

Im really tired. Yesterday, finished the 3rd/last roll-off selection for Polite. Bowled at Safra Yishun, at 7pm. I was pretty satisfied with myself, because even though the first two games didnt able to reach targetted score, I managed to overcome anger and focus more on sparing. Syukur, Alhamdulillah on that, it makes my day. ^^ Today, is a real good morning. I received my math paper, scored 87. And just awhile ago, received my grade for ICD paper. Grade: B. Thanks Allah. Only one left to receive and its the most im afraid of, because i did quite bad for it. Oh gosh! :(

You know what? I do miss our late night calls. I dont know what keep us hanging on the phone every night but we talked on and on and on... There's just things to be talked about eveytime! Haha! And to see Nadzirah otp with her friends, about guys, sharing secrets, talking about their day, envy me. Because I used to be doing that with you, and now? We dont any more. Sad. And to hear about your not-so-good days/situations, makes me feel bad for not being there to lend you a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on. I want to be there when you're down, Im sorry if I wasnt a good friend before. But despite the childish fights we had among ourselves, it was a way to strenghthen our friendships. You kicking my ass, laughed out loud and unintentionally leaving your saliva on my face, holding my hand, playing with your arms babat in class, play soccer using paper and pencil, comforting you, got spiced up with MeeSoto, running around classroom, farting in the library, skipping class and really thought that we can escape by using lame excuses, stalking boonlay people and more countless things we did. I wish those days will come by soon and let no awkwardness between us again. Takecare! ♥

Great memories starts with every little things we do together everyday.

Missing you badly! D:

May Allah Be With You.

Canon, Delighting You Always

2011-07-02T00:51:00.002+08:00

Hip Hip hoorayyy! MST is donee! But it wasnt a relief! My last paper was really.. heart breaking. I think this module will pull down my other grades. Sighh. But syukur alhamdulillah, another semester is done. In 7 weeks time, sigh, another one coming up. Gosh. Time flies fast. Feels like nothing has been done yet but actually, to look back, there's quite a few and soon.. there will be Polite during Ramadhan. Speaking of which, i doubt that i will be selected to represent SP this time. Tkpe la, anything that is best for SP. This year, Coach just want us to beat TPs', doesnt matter if we didnt win the title. Focussing on winning over TP, thats all. But to me, seeing last year's Polite, TP is very competitive. And they were veryy good, like darn unbeatable. Well, we did won the title last year, but most trophies they angkat. Never mind, i believe in SP. Now that we have quite a number of experienced bowlers for the girls, i hope we can get what Coach wants at the end of the day. InsyaAllah. Also, with Allah's will, we shall win the title too, once more. Amin. ^^

And, I call this FishBone! Haha! ^^ Heyy, i miss cruise. I miss the breeze and the wonderful, peaceful sights on the Sun Deck. Although, in most of the days, the Sun is really giving you the burn under your skin! Wow, I looked back at the photos of Allah's creation. The cloud, sunsetting, or sun rising, is just cool and truly amazing. Of course, ade lahh feeling feeling Titanic at times. Hahah! Its really cool. Aahh, the bed is awesome! (y)
Also, Im excited to complete my GEMs Assignment. Hopefully I'll do good this time.

May Allah Bless Us All

back again

2011-06-28T22:45:00.000+08:00

Hello readers. Im back! Well sort of? My status today is relax! Hahaha. Im actually quite happy because 2 MST papers are down, and just one more to go on Friday. Though, there's still a lot more revision need to be done. This MST, i really want to ace it. As my accumulative gpa was only 3.5. I need to start aiming 3.9. So average of last year's and this year will be higher than 3.5. InsyaAllah. I think Im going to study later night. But first, i need to clear my closet here and there. Too messy and too many unused clothes. Hahaha. Hmm.

Had some sisters to sisters time toda's evening at jp. Cant remember when was the last time we did so, but yeah.. today was pretty relaxing. So i guess, tomorrow will be in a hurry and kanchioonngg! haha! k bye.

holiday stress

2011-06-16T05:37:00.002+08:00

Hello Thursday Morning! im worn out the past week and i think i will be the same for this week. i can say i have not really started revision yet. This holiday really feel very short. Bowling just cant get me loose; sometimes i just feel like dropping out in the Committee. i think it's too much for me. Especially during these days, exams around the corner. Sigh. i pity bf, because sometimes i "let it out" too much to him, till this feeling of anger was blown out to him too. i thank you, though, if not i dont know when that anger will keep holding up inside me. To start with today, i was awaken by 5 messages. These messages are from bowlers, sadly. Early morning of Thursday, and im already feeling shitty! Though, i dont know whether to be mad at myself for being so dumb and slow, or mad at others. Sighs.
Okay its subuh, selamat berpuasa Amirah. Jia you! Oh no. Please dont get fever now. ):

ps/ im considering of making my blog private. sorry folks.

"Peacock cheers"

2011-06-09T23:46:00.000+08:00

I love the story. hahaha.

I am login and already in the middle of posting the video, so why not I'll just update myself. Been busy the whole day today. I reached home about 10.30pm after a longggg day camp in school with the SP Photography club. Im just the helper. Sometimes, being helper is fun because your job is not as stressful as being the GL(Group Leader). Tapi kan, when slacking time, its really slacking habis sampai membosankan. Total boredom = sleeping-feeling! zzzzz! Because you have to watch the campus do their activities, and you'll be like waiting for the next task to do. So yeahhh..
Okay okay, I know my life boring okay. I'll keep it short. Promise. 8am Assemble. Icebreaker Games for 3hours. Lunch. Amazing Race. Wet Captain Ball Match. Ran to SPGG for Bowling. Bowling ends at 7pm. Dinner. Wait and wait for Camp chief to give further instructions/briefing for tomorrow. Drop by at Aseenah's letterbox. Speed back home! Getting ready for tomorrow's day camp (Its a 2days Day Camp.). Good night. Love you!

Random

2011-06-09T23:07:00.004+08:00

When I say "I'm fine",
I want someone to look me in the eyes and say,
"Tell me the truth".

2011-06-08T20:56:00.002+08:00

"Layanlah mereka elok-elok. Jangan lalai; Jangan marah, jangan terasa bila mak bapak marah. Anggaplah mak bapak kite sentiasa betul, sentiase perfect... Sayangilah mereka!"

InsyaAllah, Amin ya rabal'alamin. :'(

Damn

2011-06-07T23:07:00.000+08:00

Shumbody!

2011-06-04T00:59:00.002+08:00

Got his tumblr! Better watch out; stalk 24/7. Hahaha!

Ease at heart..

2011-06-01T21:44:00.000+08:00

It is really hurtful and stressful right now. There is so many things inside my head that I have to think of. Assignment, assignment, assignment, bowling, camps, MST. I feel like giving up sometimes. Everyday, when I woke up, I feel like crap. Like things still not settled, you know that feeling? And it really sucks to not let it out properly, or get the right time or say to the right person. Nevermind, I am strong. InsyaAllah.

Definitely I can lie to you, but I cant lie to myself; I miss you. Sometimes I just cant get you out of my head. I wonder where you are, or what you are doing and what so ever.. and yes, the truth hurts. Astaghfirullah.

At night when the stars light up my room, I sit by myself, Talking To The Moon.

Nothing more to say

2011-05-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

Alamak. Boring la pulak. Okay hari ini, saya cuba tulis dalam bahasa melayu. [Crap, this is harder than I thought]. Pada suatu hari, chey! Sheema, Andes dan saya dapat peluang untuk berjumpa The Muttons di sekolah tadi petang. The Muttons turun ke sekolah untuk ~~promote~~ mempromosikan Ribena. Sebenarnya, ini adalah kali kedua saya berdepan dengan mereka. Pada pertama kali saya berdepan dengan mereka ialah ketika di sekolah menengah Pioneer dahulu. Saya rasa saya masih ingat lagi mengapa mereka datang ke situ. Its something to do with music. Gossshhh! I give up. Weird sey. Macam berbual Indon lagi ade! hahaha!

Yeah, just now met Muttons for a while and got myself two free bottles of Ribena. Mampos. I dont really fancy the taste of Ribena, because its super sweet to me and itch my throat badly afterwards. Stayed back in school after classes ends. Had to do group projects and so on. There is still alot more to be done. Gosh, "Good Game"! On saturday, will be busy! Need to clear bowling sessions and meeting parents at night at Singapore Expo. Get DSLR.

Syukur alhamdulillah,I get to hear a good news! Really needed that.

If you could ask God one question what would it be?

2011-05-25T21:51:00.001+08:00

Why didnt Allah create me to be a disabled person? I think I will learn life better starting with harse and difficult situations.
I am thankful for what he has given me, though. Dont get me wrong. Alhamdulillah.

Ask me anything

Aww.. not

2011-05-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea
I'll sail the world to find you
If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see
I'll be the light to guide you
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need
You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh
If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep
I'll sing a song beside you
And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me
Everyday I will remind you
Find out what we're made of
What we are called to help our friends in need
You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah
You'll always have my shoulder when you cry
I'll never let go, never say goodbye
You can count on me like one, two, three
I'll be there and I know when I need it
I can count on you like four, three, two
And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends
Are supposed to do, oh yeah, ooh, ooh

You can count on me 'cause I can count on you

2011-05-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

Oh! MasyaAllah, today was a beautiful day indeed. Even though it wasnt the best of mine, it was beautiful. How glad was I to be in the bus today, enjoying the view outside the bus. Haha. Everything looks so vivid and calming and yeah... It was different from any other day. Oh gossh what the fffishfillet. Hmm.. I think I got a new favourite show: Seriously Funny Kid. Hmm. Haha! Ya Allah, how i really wish I didnt see or feel this way.

My paradise

2011-05-23T22:34:00.003+08:00

Oh gosh, how now? Im stuck with this song. And these gorgeous voices are stuck in my head. Brings back today's sorrow and hais, sad. What is the matter with me? Why? Go away. I want to cry. ='(

When a girl cries for a boy, it simply means she misses him. When a boy cries for a girl, he loves her more than you could ever imagine. why? Im confused =(

Just so you know

2011-05-23T15:54:00.001+08:00

Im pretty bored now. Though Im having class right now. haiiyaaa. Only one thing on my mind. Universal Studio Singapore! Yeehaa~ This saturday. Boyfriend bringing me. Boy, am i excited but shy uh. Cause his paying everything like damn expensive lorh. I feel bad and uneasy.

Hmm.. Although, Im actually worried for saturday. This year's bowling training officially starts on saturday. Oh mann. I dont know how to excuse myself or when to make up for that session. Fuhhhh. Plus, its been long I want to keep up with bowling. My score, wah. Jialat.

Good news so far. Im in the school team and representing SP in Pol-Ite competition again. Although I am not good enough to get a trophy, its a real honor to play for SP again. Hehe. Also, my name is in the lists for Collegiate Competition. But, the names in the lists is not confirm yet. I am pretty nervous for it because this year, there are quite a number of girls that joined our team, who are already experienced. And some of them coach has already picked for Pol-Ite selection thingy. Hmm. Pray hard liao. =/
okay gtg do my practical. lols.

cantik tak kawan aku mkn ayam? TEEHEE!

All praises to Allah

2011-05-19T22:40:00.001+08:00

Hello, readers! I received complains for not updating my blog. Hehe, I am so sorry. It has been really busy nowadays. Previous week was always bowling meeting and bowling issues. Its because we are planning to carry out camp during the June holiday, so everyone is all kanchong for the preparation due to the short duration of time. Was so tired, and managed to sleep earlier than other usual days. So, yeah.. as long as I get enough rest ad food, I'll be okay. InsyaAllah, no worries. This week, I have a lot of assignments need to be done. I just finished my GEMS Assignment One [The Revealing Eye In Digital Photography]. Was supposed to hand it in yesterday, latest at 3pm. But I did a little last minute work here and there so ended up, sending it about 11.30pm? Lol. I hope she will be lenient enough and wont penalise me because of a few hours late. =( Gosh, taking nice photos really pressurised me siol. lol.

Well, to Raihan, if you happen to read this part; just to let you know that I realise only to you I can have my 'girl talk' now on. You dont know what I mean kan? I miss my girlfriends. I cant remember when was my last time having a girl talk with someone very close. Feels like 2years. Raihan, I miss Eefah badly. How I wish she knows that. Yeah, "go out la.." or "text her la.." I miss her badly you know? Even if I dont seem to mention her name, I really do miss her. I miss those moments when I crap along with her. I know, now you'll be saying something like "dulu kate best friends forever, and now?" You said that to me a lot of times, and I really hope you didnt. It hurts, thats why. Its not like as if I want it this way la kan. Raihan, maybe Im just not as important as how she is to me. How I treasure her, even when times were rough between us. Those talk fights and jealousy, and the buehs when going out! Hahaha.

Raihan, you know what? Yesterday, I laughed my lungs out with my classmate Sheema. And when I laughed with her, I think of Eefah. I remembered those crazy times we had together. I smiled, but wanted to cry at the same time. I dont know. I just miss her, Raihan. I dont even have her number. Hahahaha. I guess, it is true. Best friends are never forever, Boyfriends are so not whatever. Which is why Im happy to see you everytime. You make me have a chance for girl-to-boy girl talk. Haha. I appreciate what you've done and I thank you for at least be here, still, continue with our friendship. Even though, kadang2 your mouth takde lesen kan.. but yeah, at least I know that there is actually someone who I can share with beside my boyfriend or Hanis or Sheema or Humaira. ^^

I'll be looking forward to meet you again and have girl talk~ Hahaha! After the next week, k? :D

Okay! That was a little emo. Hahaha. Its okay. This is what blogging for. Let it out.

Si Hanis ni pulak nak orang cakap psl die. Dah, dah cakap daaaaaaaa.. See, I am so nice, I put your picture below also. Hahah! -.- Okay that is all, good night! ^^

Plain |

2011-05-07T00:00:00.001+08:00

Its the second week of 2nd year in poly. And I can already feel the stress starting. I wonder how will it be like next sem or next few weeks. Been really sad to know that my thumbdrive missing. And also, Boyfriend gone for NS. It feels so fast that he is actually in NS already. Been crapping a lot with classmates and bowling members while he was gone. Im pretty bored everyday. What and where else can I go after school? Home. Hais. Bosan. If only got plans with friends. kan best.

OMG, Im super hungry right now! I shall eat maggie later on.

You know something? Im getting more and more into Photography. Well, all because of that GEM la. Now Im just hungry for more nice pictures to take. And feels like to go everywhere just to take some nice photos. Another random, undescribable addiction. Learning the techniques and such, just makes me wanna keep going for it. Hmm..

Besides school, bowling and such.. there are quite a few things in my mind. Its very very complicated. Sometimes I wonder how I could even think of complicated stuff, which is very complicated to tell and share and even to get it out of my mind. Wth? I dont understand myself, I think. I dont know la. Im hungry tired and bored. I wish my life would be filled with something good to do. Atleast its something good to learn and acknowlegde. Im such a boring person. I wish I could be like her[below] . Pfft, pathetic me.

Wednesday

2011-04-27T23:37:00.004+08:00

How shall I say about today? Well literally, this week Im a little bit worn out here and there. I guess due to lack of sleep and not been eating too well, causes this exhaustion and headaches. Sigh.

Today was awfully fun. Tired. Today was my first time helding up the cca showcase booth in SP. 3pm till 5pm. It was pretty fun. Saw quite a number of familiar faces. Juniors in Pioneer Secondary. Also, some from Pioneer Primary. Boy, was I glad! My old mate even come up to me and said hi and all. Haha! Well, I wish her all the best on going through her first year in SP. Hopefully, to bump to each other again some day. Hahaha! And GEM in Photography is boring but gives me the urge to take more beautiful shots. InsyaAllah, some day I'll get to be master in this. And in bowling too. ^^
Seriously, I feel like there's nothing to do after graduating. I dont have any ambition to work out for. Pity, isnt it? Maybe, I'll continue studying. InsyaAllah, He will show me the way.

Asperger's Syndrome

2011-04-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

"It is a life-long condition, which affects about 63 in 10000 people, more commonly in males than females. Those with this syndrome are usually of average or above average intelligence."

Well, I got a new classmate who happen to be having this syndrome. And as for being his classmate for the rest of the year, we were informed and so called be 'caution' about it. I find these people more normal than the average people. I dont know how I should elaborate what I meant. Its like when I look at him behave in class, he was the one who response the teacher, while all of us daydream or sleeping and so on. And just on the first day our teacher wants us to get this particular textbook. And the next day, he came in class worried. Came in and apologise because he couldnt get the book, no stock. Well, dont you think that's normal? We, the average, normal ones, isnt acting normal. MasyAllah.

Thats not the only amazing thing, every person whose having this or any other syndrome, indeed have their own special gift. They must have talent on something. Like for Ryan, i can see that he's really smart in Math. Like really! You remember the movie "My name is Khan"? His attitude towards people is like that. They have a lack and poor in social communication and body language. He will talk to you but wont look at you. And slow in catching jokes or sarcasm.

I like to look at he behaves. Ryan makes me smile, even though sometimes it might be funny, I still find it cute. ^^ Teringat CIP during sem1.

Cute kann!? heheheh! ♥

2011-04-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

Lembutkan lah hati dan jiwamu. Bukalah Mata, Amirah. SubhanAllah. :'(
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxyblC5Ejmk&feature=player_embedded#at=11

HARRY.SHUM.JR

2011-04-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

I can make a whole full movie with all his face on every second. Woooooh!

insyaAllah (:

2011-04-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Hey there. Ive been looking forward for schooool. Weird isnt it?? Hehe. However, I need to think of what GEMs Im going to take for this semester. Haaah. The interesting ones, have a few seats only. I hoped to be with my classmates, so I wont get lonely, atleast. Fuhhh. So far, I'll be with Sheema, Wei Sheng, Andes and Sandra again this year. Alhamdulillah. I think thats about it for school. Oh yah! Tension is, dad asked me this big question in the afternoon.

Dad: Its time for you to plan and decide where to go University or do other stuff like working, after graduating.
Me: *Goes blankk*
A few minutes later...
Me: University sounds tough. No?
Dad: Ala, isnt this feeling is as the same as when you were about to go to Poly.

In the car, I couldnt sleep my way back home from Geylang. Hahah! Chey, bedek. I slept awhile. Hehhs. But really, the feeling is freaking nervous. And I feel the creeps when that question popped out of the blue. I really went O.O HAHAHAHA! Personally, now that it popped out to me. I feel like continueing my studies. One reason why, is because I have no idea what I shall go working at after graduation. Gosh, Im pathetic.

#8 Okay last last questions, IN ESSAY FORM! What do you look for in a partner? (:

2011-04-09T22:46:00.001+08:00

Alamak. Im not really in the mood of essay. But I'll try my best.

A partner that's afraid of Allah. Who loves Allah more than me.

He is able to be a great leader in the household. And when he did a simple and small sin, he would never give up to repent and be a better person.

A partner that has a lot of patience, control his angers and knows the basic of Islam. A partner that scolds me when I do something bad, instead of letting me continue or join me in it.. because I can be pretty stubborn and ignorance at times. Most importantly, a person that knows what love is, not lust.

That's about it Keven. Hope its like an essay, like you wanted. ^^

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My Diary is my most favourite book

2011-04-06T23:27:00.002+08:00

Ya ALLAH, I have no money, but I have You. I am rich.
Ya ALLAH, I have no freedom, but I believe in You. I am free.
Ya ALLAH, I have no patience, but I read Your Quran. I am calm.
Ya ALLAH, I get no respect, but You listen to my dua. I am proud.
Ya ALLAH, I have no time, but I think of Jannah. I have forever.
Ya ALLAH, I have much time, but I look at Your Signs. I have today.
Ya ALLAH, I feel so weak, but I fast Ramadan. I am strong.
Ya ALLAH, I feel so tired, but I make dua. I open my eyes.
Ya ALLAH, I feel so dirty, but I repent to You. I am cleansed.
Ya ALLAH, I feel so depressed, but I remember you. I am at peace.
Ya ALLAH, I feel so lost, but I follow Your Commands. I am safe.
Ya ALLAH, nobody listens, but You never turn your back on me. I am grateful.
Ya ALLAH, my heart breaks, but I imagine meeting You. My heart finds rest.
Ya ALLAH, I cry every night, but I make wudu. I wash away my tears.
Ya ALLAH, I feel so alone, but I pray to You..

No matter what's your situation is, always and remember Amirah, always turn to Him, The Almighty. Be it when your feeling down, and especially when times going nice and well. Subhanallah, He makes us feel peace and ease at heart whenever we think of Him.

Im unsure why is my face getting all pimple-d up. Thinking too much kot? Irritating tau, I'll be scratching, touching my face here and there with these hands! Gahhh. By the way, Im picking up writing on my diary again. I somehow celebrated the ending of the sixth book and the begining of the seventh book, yesterday night. I had my laughs reading the 'Chapter Of Life' of mine. Hahah. Some sad moments, some hilarious moments. Miss those times. ♥

Warm

2011-04-05T16:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, was the most tiring day ever this March holiday!

Met Raihan in the morning at 1030am @ Gek Poh, Mcdonalds. Help him out with his blog stuff while having Mcdonald breakfast! Wahh, I truly miss 'Monday Mac'. Then afterwards at 12noon, ride 185 to school. Bowling. We're learning something new, different every week. Interesting. On my way back home, dad called up. Asked me to buy dictionary. I was like... why?? We already have one, a big chunky ones. I went to school's Popular bookstore, I cant find them there. Sigh. Rushed to Gek Poh again to look up at the stationary store, hoping they are seling them there. I sweat everywheeere I go. Its freaking warm yesterday. And still, I cant find them. I was rushing to Farrah's birthday party with Atifah actually, and with the short of time and energy, and short of Ezlink money, I headed home empty handed.

Dad thought I came back with a dictionary, and lucky enough I was right. There's one at home. He didnt notice it was there. Lol. Buat penat je -.- Hahahah! Hot! Changed up, 'cause I was sweatiingg like a pig. Haha! Bosan uh. Then after leaving the party at about 8pm, met Ezini and Roy. Hagendanz. Walked back home. The end.

Whatever it is, yesterday was freaking warm. Cannot tahan. MasyaAllah, apatah lagi Neraka. Alhamdulilah, it rains awhile just now.

Bawa Mak pergi Zoo ^^

2011-03-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

Panjangkanlah umur mereka, dengan sihat walafiat.

Twins

2011-03-27T23:34:00.002+08:00

Im freaking bored. Been doing nothing since wednesday, creeping around about the corners of my house. Seriously, Im so lame. Came across with these again. Im just wasting time here, bare with me. No talent to showcase, im freaking jealous with all these people doing covers.

I think they're incredible. They can sing together well. Teamwork.

If you could live in any house you wanted to, what would it look like?

2011-03-27T15:28:00.001+08:00

And ohh! I want a small pretty bowling alley, and maybe a huge space for ice skating. And a totally big closet. Probably a room of a closet. Woahh.

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If you could live in any house you wanted to, what would it look like?

2011-03-27T15:25:00.001+08:00

Not too big, not too small. Comfy. Walls painted in some black, mostly white. Antique furnitures. Black and white fur-y carpets. Neat house, dont have to be pretty. <3

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All In A Column |

2011-03-24T01:34:00.000+08:00

Wah, I know right. My previous post, like real documentary essay. Well, I tried to summarise everything. Hahha. Lazy to upload pictures uh. Heheheh.

Im looking forward for study award this year. Hopefully I can get the $400. Hehe. Been thinking, what shall I spent it on. A new handphone? A new camera? Or.. a new bowling ball? Hehehe. Oh yeah. I havent share my results yet.

There, can see? From the top; GEM: Etiquette & Professional Image; Math; Java; IDEAs; CRS; Networking; Fundamental Electronics. It was quite low actually, nothing for me to brag much. Only that, Im surprised to see A for Java and Math. And managed to get no Cs for Networking and FE. Fiuhhh. Sem One was 3.4, which is why my overall average gpa is 3.5. Still alot to buck up.

Dad said, " I think you can go to University, just keep aiming 3.8". I was shocked to hear him say that. He never sort of comment or in this case, it feels like a compliment from him. Alhamdulillah, then. Okay, I was excited to see its 3.6. But the overall gpa wasnt impressive enough to me. Should have done a lot better. But nevermind, syukur. I try my very best for the next four semesters. Amin. ^^

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And, I hope I get to be with the same classmates in 2010. I miss them. Have not been meeting up. Must do so soon. As for cca. We're having chalet at i dont know, on 7th April. Pretty cool, looking forward to it. Especially when the awkwardness isnt as bad as before, around the air. ^^

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By the way, tomorrow evening, Aimullah will already on his way to Europe. Hmm, I'll miss him. Takecare, promise? He'll be going alone! Who wouldnt be scared?? Grrr. Which is why I force him to go fast, come back faster. Hahaha.

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Hot kan die? Die bbl melayu dgn I. Aiseyyman, ILY!

Hong Kong

2011-03-21T22:14:00.001+08:00

Back from HongKong on last Monday. Im trully lazy to update ya'll. But I guess I'll miss these moments when I get older. So, let me just have a quick story-tellling on what happen during the four days three nights there. Hope, you'll enjoy it as well. ^^

Day One | 100311

Managed to be at the airport just in time. Its kind of embarrassing to see that I have the largest luggage bag. I just thought it'll be easier for me to just stuff my shopping things inside, and not care to carry anything else, like an extra hand-carry bag for my stuff. So, we took off immediately after dawn, estimated around 8.30am left Singapore. I was extremely nervous. Of course I was, because the night before, Boyfriend informed me about the tsunami in Japan. No wonder I got those strange feelings. Flight went a little rough when taking off. I panicked a little. Alhamdulillah it went fine then. 4 hours in plane. Something was wrong with my passport. So my check-in and out took longer than the rest.

We dropped at Causeway Bay of Hong Kong and had our lunch at this halal "restaurant". More like a hawker center. I cant believe they called the place halal, but I wasnt 50-50 about the food that moment. We just gulp everything down. They served us mutton chicken beef curry. Roasted chicken and duck. Everyone tasted the duck. I didnt because it looks so not appetizing to me. Although it look like chicken, I decided not to. Hahaha. The taste reminds me of sup kambing. haha! Night time we went for sight-seeing a little after training at the aweeesome bowling alley. Dinner at this indian cuisine restaurant. Ordered chapatti and naan bread because it was already late. It cost HKD50 each person. Day one was super tiring.

Day Two | 110311
Woke up early, took tramp to Causeway Bay, I think. Had a little shopping around there till afternoon. The whole city is like Orchard plus Bugis plus Chinatown. Only that its colder there. Hee. Afterwards, back to hotel for a rest. Can you imagine, we just arrived there, and they scheduled us a friendly match with the Hong Kong National Youth. I was pretty scared. Who knows, they'll trash us to the core? Warm up from 430pm-6pm. And the real deal starts. Because there were only 8 of us, we all played doubles. Im with Eugene. Alfred with Raina. Humaira with Nabilah. Joey with Benjamin. I was little awkward with Eugene. But it isnt going to always be awkward, must build the friendship and teamwork strong. Haha. First game - 101. Second game - 164. Third game - 172. Forth game - 138. Second and third game not bad la eh? Hahaha. I had a great game. I know for yall it might sound lame for me to get this scores. But its an improvement! Who doesnt like that, right?! Was an awesome day. After enough rest, went for a little night walk around North Point. Bila part makan je spoil. I had Maggie Mee for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Geram tau. Grr.

Day Three | 120311
Meet Bowlers early morning after Maggie Mee breakfast (grr!). Head to Mongkok. The little pasar malam, remember Amirah? Bought quite some things for family there. And went for a walk at the Kowloon Park. There, I saw my company: The Mira Building. Lol! Nice. The park was just wonderful. Some of the trees looked like cherry blossom trees, only that its red in colour. Though, I was hoping see those cherry blossom trees. Haha! Cool. Took the MTR back to hotel after a great lunch at Nathan Road. Fuuuhh. Nasi Goreng. Humaira, Joey, Nabilah and I were like gulping down our food. Nice. Nasi Goreng Mata Lembu. Feels good. Back to hotel again. Rest.
All four sports cliques, bowlers, squash, netballers, and the sport clubs members meet up late afternoon, to have our big group dinner together. Ate at chinese cuisine nonhalal restaurant. Wow, when we got our ordered food from halal restaurant, we went all grr. Because Beans and Kacang Panjang everywhere. And my chicken stew doesnt taste anything like chicken stew, because I could strongly taste the Cengkih and Kayu Manis. Yuck. Followed the squash team for their friendly match with the hongkong teams. It was a bore. But the fun thing was the light-painting sessions together with the girls. We had a hell lot of fun sey! This was the day when the hong kong squash leader ask us, "You know what is escalator?". Hhahah! Kekek sey tuh. We were asking for directions to go to the nearest H&M store. Its like Metro shop. We ended up taking the Taxi. MTR back to hotel, and my feet is already crying for help. And remembered Alfred had to tahan his bladder. And saw the first cockroach down the street. My mouth la, masin! Grr. Once back to hotel, Maggie again because was hungryyyyy. Makan Makan Makan! ^^

Day Four | 130311
Last day already, and suddenly I dont feel like going home, despite seeing the crisis happened in Japan. Fuuh. Woke up extreme early, packed our stuff, went for a little walk around our hotel with Humaira and Joey. Bought some more stuff because I only left about HKD100. Planned to finish it up. Then, meet the rest of the bowlers at about 1130am? Checked out at 11am. Went for the last shopping with Bowlers. "Its a girl's paradise shopping center.. y'all will regret for spending your money on somewhere else," by Alfred. I was like, thanks a lot yeah? For not bringing us here on the first day. But actually, when I see the shopping center, okay la. Nothing special actually. Everything is very expensive. Getting tired, hungry, mood swings. When we get back to hotel, quick last packing and went to Sports Shopping Center with other teams.
Bowlers were very tired. Walk Walk Walk. Joey Humaira and I spent our leftover money at the MiniSuperMarket Store. Foods to makan, durhh! Then find a seat outside the shpping center, but there wasnt any. So sit at the middle of this pathway of a park-liike place. Hahaha. Dig in chips and drinks. Back to Airport when sun is down. Were already at Hong Kong airport at about 7pm. Humaira and I rushed to the prayer room at the Hong Kong terminal. We were shocked to see the shelves that were supposed to have kain, is filled with tissue rolls. How nice. And the door is a glass door type, so people outside can see us. Awkward sey. After solat all, we run to the flight Gate. We thought we missed our plane. Padahal2. False Alarm. Haha! Everyone was still there, even Popeyes! Hehehe. No worries, its halal. I eat like a pig lorrh. Haha, real chicken. How nice. Thanks Raina! And then, tadaaa, took off. Good bye Hong Kong! Off the plane like a zombie, not enough sleep. lols. Alhamdulillah, everything went well. Miss my parents! My first words to them was, I want Fillet O Fish! Heee. Thanks for fetching me early of the day, 12.55am, parents. Love and Misses! <3

How would u like to kill the person that u hate most?

2011-03-17T23:19:00.001+08:00

Im not that creative uh. I think I might just throw a bowling ball on his/her head. That'll be cool. When he/she got knocked out, I'll paint his/her face like some master piece. Hmmmm. I dont know. I dont want the person to die. I just want to have fun with it while he/she got knocked out. Wow, that sounds wrong. I'll put it in a cart, push him down the hill, with my roller blades on and have fun and so on.. Hahahah! I love this question! ^^

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Like a child

2011-03-09T18:30:00.001+08:00

About a few more hours left. Im feeling a little scared of going oversea without parents. First time. Though I hope to have fun the days there, I have a bad feeling. What if something bad that I'll have to face later on. Insyallah, He will look after me. Im all dumb and scared of small little things. Im done packing, left the toiletries only. I dont think I'll get a chance to do shopping there. Hmm. From the map, it seems like theres only a few shopping center in HongKong, North Point. Halal foods; Insyallah I'll manage for the last two days. Alhamdulillah, Im not the only Malay student going. I feel like Im forgetting something, or .. Gosh, Im freaking scared right now. Farewell friends, family, Singapore. ^v^

xoxo,

What's one thing that most people don't know about you?

2011-03-08T09:14:00.001+08:00

Im fat. Hahaha!

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Humaira

2011-03-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

I kinda like this song now. I know its all mushy but thats not why I like it though. Because the melody is just calm and whenever I listen to it, its like the reflect-to-myself time. I came to think about every single thing. What I did wrong or right. Hope it makes you feel the same way too. (:

Just now, went for bowling with dearest Humaira. Had a hell lot of fun. Game is still like normal. Hais. Not yet major stable improvement. After that, ate at foodcourt3. Okay, the real deal why I blog today is because I want to complain! My left arm is still feeling so numbbb!!!! So tak larat! Hahaha! Went to get myself a jab with spbowlers. Then, Humaira and I head to Jurong Point. We didnt know what to do, and so just window shopped. We were like shrieking and complaining to each other whenever we saw nice tops and pants. Lol! Well, orang-orang yang tak ade duit, macam gini la. Hahah. Reached home, lepak!! Lol! Okay dah, bye! ^^

Quote

2011-03-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

" Sometimes, the person who tries to keep everyone happy is always the lonely person, so never leave them alone, because they will never say they need you. "

2011-03-02T22:10:00.000+08:00

The more these days past, the quicker I get bored. I want to go out la can? Ive been craving to watch Glee Season 2 but grr, no hope. My classmaates and I thought of having another class outing. But everyone couldnt decide on which day is most appropriate and convenient to everyone. Tsk, malas uh like this. Hais.

Anyway, got to go school this friday. (If you even care. Hah!) Going Hongkong soon. Pfft, no big deal, its still in Asia. Oh, you know, some people will be going Europe, some will be going USA, some will be going France so on and so forth. Happy for them, though. I miss school, but truely, I dont miss exams. I heard, exam result will be out on the 22March? I think. This will be a great question to put on Formspring. Haha! Okay, I guess goodnight.

tell me your fave lepak spots :B heh

2011-03-01T22:46:00.001+08:00

Jurong Point Library. XD

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2011-02-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

Astaghfirullah. What is the matter with me nowadays?! I feel so stress. Typically because, my phone sucks. Rosak la! Gaaah. I feel so bad. Because I got so very mad over small little things. Especially when Danial starts his nonsence. Its like Im not myself when I go mad. I dont like it, really. I screamed at him just now because he purposely attended prayers late. Oh gosh, what now? Whenever I see his face, its like time-for-me-to-scream-at-you feeling. Is this even making sense!? Why am I putting up here, anyways?

Ignore all those craps. Bottom line is, I got myself a shitty phone. Irritating little brother. Atrocious temper.

Back on writing

2011-02-25T21:44:00.001+08:00

Hey readers! The day Ive been waiting for all this while has come! I had my last paper, also means, last day of 1st year! How cool is that?! For some people, they finish earlier and for some, still a week to go. All I can say. Good luck and do your best!! Also to boyfriend, goodddyy luckkkkk! He'll be taking O's this April, if Im not wrong.

A lot have happened while Im away from blogging. Went karaoke with Atifah Putri Natra Ezini on valentine's day. Planned out with Aseenah and Nafisah. Eefah was supposed to come along but something cropped up,so she couldnt make it. Sayang sey. Also, to those people who tried to call and message me, recklessly (chey!), I couldn't answer because recently, I lost my phone. Cissh, for the first time. But, now, I got myself a new number already. New phone? Nahh. Haprak nye. Lack. Auto shutdown, if you know what I mean. Rosak-rosak lerh. My sister's previous phone. She got herself a new one already. Geram jeek.

Besides this musibah, Im sure ada hikmahnye sebab handphone hilang. And indeed, if its not my handphone that gone missing, I might miss my Math Examination timing. Because before it went missing it ws scheduled at 3.30pm. Syukur alhamdulillah, it went missing. I checked mysas, and the timing were changed to morning. Nasib baik lorh.

So, wheere are you people going for holiday this march? I will be going HongKong for 4D3N. Hahaha. On the 10th-14th. Then on 19th June, going on a cruise! Yippiieee! Macam excited gitu. Heehehe. All first time. Insyallah no bad news came up. I guess, this will be all folks. Good night!

IMissThisLittleFellow! ->-

How do you prevent yourself from being complacent??

2011-02-22T22:27:00.001+08:00

How do you prevent yourself from being complacent??

Answer here

If you could have any car you wanted, what kind of car would you get?

2011-02-22T21:44:00.001+08:00

Oooooooh! Lexus RX350, Audi R8 Spyder, or VolksWagen New Beetle! HEHEHE!

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What's your favorite quality about yourself?

2011-02-20T22:11:00.001+08:00

Hmm. Spontaneous! ^^

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Freaking cool!

2011-02-15T23:24:00.001+08:00

これは極度の涼しいです！ビング翻訳をチェックし、私はこれのブログにしようとすると思った！のみ変換されません、しかし、翻訳を話す！何か私のブログでは、異なるさてみましょうか。

こんにちは、私の名前は Nurul Amirah です！JAVA の場合は、ちょうど今テストを記述を修正しました。私はそれにうんざり。退屈です。いくつかの好きな日本の引用符：犬夜叉、座っている！すみません。これは、男は真剣にクールです！私は午前 9 時明日レッスンがあります。学校の後、我々の 3 時 30 分の JAVA のテストまで待つ必要があります。私はかなり緊張。私は十分を読むと思うが。しかし、私は質問に正しく答えることができるんです。基本的に電子は、私は研究する方法を知らない。私さて得る高い成績での幸運を祈るか。

うーん。これらの日、私は非常に忙しくしています。ボーイフレンドの気にしないだろうことを望みます。ご了承ください。私は約束を私を以上の学校の後、時間を費やすでしょいます。とても残念！愛しています！

HAHAHAH! Guess what? The translator thing didnt quite work! so, it's okay if ya'll dont understand. Only the Hello, my name is Nurul Amirah is correct. LOL. Okay people, enjoy whatever you are doing. Good luck for me tomorrow! :D

Which do you think you'll choose? A deserted world full of knowledge resources, or A world filled with love everywhere?

2011-02-12T22:19:00.001+08:00

Which do you think you'll choose? A deserted world full of knowledge resources, or A world filled with love everywhere?

Answer here

Forgotton

2011-02-12T21:58:00.003+08:00

NE Quiz on this coming tuesday. Java Test on this coming wednesday. FE Exam is on 22Feb. Math is on 25Feb. Just keeping myself updated. Or, to those whho actually cares out there. Hmm. Which one should I study first eh? Ive studied for NE here and there a little bit. Just need a thorough revision will boost up the memo. I guess I better study more on Java till weekend is over. But on Monday Im going out with some friends. Karaoke-ing, I guess. So, when am I going to revise NE? I'll squeeze it on Sunday then. Hmm. Im super stress with FE. I suck. I got just a pass for it last exam. Hais. It's 5 credits from this module. Lets bring all the positive attitude together now! ... Nah, still no mood to study. Nevermind friends, Have a great life.

Wishing all the best to all first year students on their last examination papers!!

"Cukuplah Tuhan Bagiku"

2011-02-12T21:35:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling all negative again. I dont know how people get rid of the sorrows inside. It feels like I'm the only one handling this situation, hard enough. To them it looks like nothing happen. How did ya'll do it? Get rid of this missing feeling? Hmm.. I am not myself lately. No one that I care about asked how am I doing.. Or asked what happened, in a moment like this. Shits. I dont know how to say this. Oh no.. I dont wish to say it here. Looks like, the only way is just look in the mirror and ask myself.
Oh Allah, how do I get rid of this feeling? I want to talk about it to someone who actually cares. Or can do something about it. Because Ive tried so hard. It seems like it's getting worse than I thought. Like what boyfriend has said, it already looks like Im being pushy. Im not! I just want to put some effort to these unforgetable friendships, but they are not working with me right now. Oh Allah, what should I do. Whatever it is, I believe He will help. And how glad am I, to have and believe this religion. Allah will always be there. Patience. It'll be alright. I know, He is listening. He knows how I feel. How glad I am. Patience. Oh Allah, berikanlah ketenangan kpdku. Dan juga kebahagian kpd orang-orang yang ku cintai. Amin ya rabal'alamin.

what do you think of your boyfriend?

2011-02-09T22:51:00.001+08:00

Perfectly kind! <3

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Harmonica

2011-02-08T23:20:00.003+08:00

These are the wonderful melody that I played since secondary one, all the way to secondary four. Be it, a piano or harmonica piece. It is still vivid in mind, first and last piano piece with Mr. Lennie Chua was I'll Be Right Here Waiting. First harmonica piece was Dangshinuen Nanuen. And back then, I was still struggling with blowing hole by hole. The last harmonica piece Ive played was during the Pioneer Anniversary, If We Hold On Together. I feel so emo-ish now. Thinking about how annoying our cca members are. How pleasant feeling when we manage the whole melody together as an assemble. I want my harmonica back.

Dangshinuen Nanuen Leron Leron Sinta

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star Yesterday & Today

When You Believe Dahil Sa Iyo

Humoresque L'arlesseinne Suite No.2, Farandole

My Island Home Can Can

Do-Re-Mi La Cumparsita

Bengawan Solo If We Hold On Together

Come Sweet May Colonel Bogey March

Gavotte In A Persian Market

Long Long Ago Hava Nagila

Ice Skating |

2011-02-04T00:38:00.005+08:00

This is what I want to do, besides bowling. So beautiful the way she carry out the emotions. I wannttt!! )=

Reports |

2011-02-02T13:24:00.000+08:00

Four down. Three more projects need to be completed as soon as possible It'll all due next week. Hello there, it has been awhile keeping this page updated. So, yeah, Two reports, three 'Interviews', and a presentation left. I thought of doing the reports by today. But aiyo, the instruction papers is with my team mates. I really want these to get done and over with quick.

Grrr! I am stuck with FE project, because Sheema and I still couldnt get the lab practical right yet. We try, try, try, but it just doesnt work! Frustrations. And its like as if there's no more hope for both of us. We have only 1 last lab lesson to do 2 more practical questions, the multisim, and the interview. All in 1hr30mins. Sempat keee??!! Stress, FE. Pray for the best for next tuesday.

Next wednesday, need to wear formal again! For presentationn, again! Grrr. Exams is about 3 weeks ahead. O.O 3 weeks!?? Gossh! I havent prepare!! Panic Panic! Got to go, loves.

If your heart is bleeding and your eyes are sick of crying, what would you do?

2011-01-28T21:22:00.001+08:00

Usually, when we cry it all out, heart will slowly heal. So, just cry!

Ask me anything

Mountains

2011-01-23T23:17:00.003+08:00

Weekends over soon. So fast! Hmm.

Anyways, I read some of my formsprings question. About beach and mountains? It made me have this dream to mountains out. Can you imagine how it'll feel like? It must have been so amazing. After all the hardwork climbing to the top, you'll get nothing much. But I am sure there is. Its the feeling of achievement and satisfactions. Can you imagine how beautiful the world will look like up there?? Especially during sunrise or sunset. Oh, Subhanallah. The exhaustions of tracking up the mountains will just disappear, i bet. Someday, I must go there! This will be one of the places that I would love to go. Insyallah.

I dont know why am I always mad at you. I dont like to say this. but as a sister, i have to say. your behaviour is just unacceptable. I know, who am i to say this. I am just a little sister of yours and you are always right, right? i dont like you going out everyday and left the chores to me. I dont like the fact that mum has been nagging at me, instead of you, cause of your matter that you did in the house. i have to clear it all for you because I am called your little sister! And because, I am at home and you'r not. and when i get angry, you'll get angrier. i know you are thinking that i am selfish when you wanted to use the camera and some of my clothes. thing is, i am not. I get grumpy when you did that, and its not because Its my stuff, I cant share, its because you dont know how to keep my stuff back in place. people have to look everywhere in thhe house to find it. Yes people. Mum will always be by side. She said im selfish! Im not! Just that i dont like the attitude of yours! i tried to be patience at times. I thought i was getting numb but actually i dont. i cant take it. I cant say all this right in your face, because you're just sensitive enough and I can imagine what happen next. I'll be blame and scolded by mum again, for being rude. In my defense, this isnt rude. This is fact-talking. Who else would say these things to you, if its not me, mum or dad!? No one! Now, i dont even have the guts to say it ti you. Nak jaga hati kau punye pasal. Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hati kakakku. Bukekanlah pintu hatinya. Engkau berikanlah ketabahan kepadaku. Amin yarabbal'alamin.

Hello awesome you!. <:

2011-01-23T22:46:00.001+08:00

Hahah! Yay! Im awesome! Hello awesome you toO! ^^

Ask me anything

favourite number

2011-01-19T00:00:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the 17. I kept laughing and laughing in school. Had FE project lab with sheema. It was stressful actually because so many wires need to be plucked in the circuit board. But somehow, the stress feeling fade away as we do anyhow and had some secret help from other group. Hehe!

Next, lunch time. Monday is Mcdonald day.Wei Sheng really made me laugh when he gagap his first few words and ended up to give up with his sentence. Mostly I laugh because of him. Hahaha! And Andes's gross table manners was unexpectably hilarious and tremendous! Burbs.

Then, I had Gummy Bears during JAVA class. And my class just kept laughing at me throughout the period, because of idk why...

Tcher: How many variables should we put in here?

Class: threeee.

Me: *raise both hands* YAY!!

Just because of that. I still dont know why. I just get really excited to get it right what. Then they say because I heard the question wrongly. They say I might heard: Class over. You know that kind of thing. I was like =.= But Im glad to wake everyone else, though. Hehhehe.

After school, I got really excited. Meetup with Raihan, 'Atifah, Putri!! How I miss 'Atifah and Putri. We met in HARRIS, then off to banquet untuk teman Raihan makan. Ezini tag along, Putri went home. Had Mcdonald Icecream, Ezini's treat! Lol! Like old days betul! ^^ Then after awhile, Ezini and 'Atifah went home. Me and Raihan stayed in the library to do his blog formations and ~~cleaning up my thumbdrive.~~ When Roy came along from work. We depart at around 8pm. After hantar Raihan ke interchange, I accompany my darling ni makan at Banquet. I was really happy to meet him yesterday, as it feels so long we have not spend time well with each other. You know because of me schooling, and he working =/ So, yeah, I reached home about 9pm. What a lovely favourite-number da! (;

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That was yesterday. And today, had another great laughs with classmates. Projects is slowly reducing and progressing. Hmm. (I wonder until when will it ends.) Pfft. Okay, end class at about 4:15pm. Rushed home, to get quick rest. Went out after Maghrib and meet up with Boyfriend again! ^^ And then guess what!? I saw Shima and Normala! I was so happy. Normala had been the great F&N partner and Shima was just my Bully during Math lesson. Rindu tau. After letting go abit of missing-ness, turned away, then tears came along. Aww. Accompany Boyfriend have his breakfast+lunch+dinner, then chao. So, these days have been really good. And it feels good to know that some things still have npt change. I'll keep missing you people! xoxo.

Would you rather vacation at the beach or in the mountains?

2011-01-16T19:58:00.001+08:00

im not sure. Ive always like the beach. Its where I bring my thoughts together, felt peace. However, I think I would like the mountains if Igot the chance to experience it (:

Ask me anything

Secondary Hits!

2011-01-15T13:49:00.005+08:00

I was checking out my archive again as I was mundane for the moment. I love the post on Friday, May 15 2009 most.

Friday May 15 2009;

" Today was definitely lame! And i got cracked up by today's .. day.

Second period was P.E. Mr Kang was blabbering and bluttering about our Napha results. Most people failed their 2.4runs. Then suddenly he started to nag, pointing2 at the road outside the school fence so i ask, because i wasnt listening much actually. hehe.

me: Cher, wad are u talking abt??!

[the class went silent]

Mr kang: NIE!

The whole class was laughing their lungs out. This shows that the whole class doesnt have a clue what he was nagging about and wasnt listening! hahahhaah! why is he suddenly talking about NIE. he was "scolding" us about the run atfirst.. in my mind, how did he end up telling us about NIE!?!? LOL.

The third period, went back up to class for SS lesson. [eefah got it all wrong! sujatha wasnt talking about the weather, talking about sports day yg da lepas tuh la syg!Obviously, not listening! hahah! daydream lagi lah! lol.] Fyi, Mr Pang was a p.e and comb.humanities teacher.

Sujatha: Cher, during the sports day, you wear sunglasses very hot lah!

Mr Pang: Yah, during sports day, the weather was hot what.

[he heard sujatha wrongly-.-]

Sujatha: no, i say you very hot when wearing sunglasses.

Mr Pang: Ouh,... but i said that the weather was hot. [smiled]

Me & Eefah: ELEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHHH!!blushing alrdy!!

[padahal die da phaiseh and blushing!]

The whole class joined in and we were laughing like nobody business. The china girl beside me was like eyeing me alrdy [annoyed]. But i dont give a damn. HAHAHAHA!! Bcos its real funny! Mr Pang da phaiseh, step betol2 kt projector. Padahal, his not going to use it! Me and eefah was like laughing towards his reactions. When he turn his back at us, we could see him laughing and smiling and giggling at himself!! hahahaha!kekek sak. when he turn to us again, he shook his head and smile again. pantat kembang doook! hahahahahah! Sial jek Amirahh. Suke ketawekan cikgu! I never thought he was fun-going! His face features made him look so fierce and scary sometimes but he's totally humble! To me, his hot. But eefah said "eee.eee.eeee." hahaah! Sepak muke kau! hahahahaah! I love SS all of the sudden. Lol. Idk what's with all the p.e teachers. LOLOLOLOLOLOL! [Oh, i miss the clumsiness of Eefah darling <3]

Recess time:-

We; me, eefah,aeen, were busy talking and changing our p.e tees to our uniforms.[Yup, changing outside cubicals] Suddenly, someone off the lights from outside the toilet. We were like [insert vulgarities]. Aeenn went out to on the light back.

Aeenn: ouh. shirah nye keje laah.

Eefah: laarhh!

Mira: huh?! sape?? Shirah? Shirah mane?? Ouh,.. Shirajudeen, Najma??! [our classmate]

We laugh laugh laugh.

Aeenn: sekali die kat dlm ehh.. [pointing at the "cubical", someone's inside]

Fyi, Najma was from india, came to m'sia and now settled down in spore. Shirajudeen was her dad's name. I got scared, what if aeenn is right. i hide in another "cubical", beside the one she pointed. Then, a few seconds,i heard the pointed "cubical" opened. hahahahahaah! when i open my door, i saw eefah and aeenn rolling on the toilets floor, laughing and pointing2. I peep outside, it was reaally Najma!! lol! damn!! I felt so guilty after that because i'd make fun of Najma's name. Sorry Najma. Lesson learnt. LOL. Now, im tired! Hope you guys laugh along too. lol! "

I can still see their laughters till now. I miss ya'll! Hahaha! There's more. 2009 is the best! (:

Dont keep your distance

2011-01-13T23:07:00.008+08:00

I miss talking. Like big talking! Like major talks with people. I kept thinking of 'Atifah these days. Of course, everyone. But.. nah, she must be fine. Okayy, enjoy this song. I did.

Those schoolgirl days
Of telling tales, and biting nails, are gone
But in my mind,
I know they will still live on and on
But how do you thank someone
Who has taken you from crayons to perfume?
It isn't easy, but I'll try
If you wanted the sky,
I would write across the sky in letters,
That would soar a thousand feet high:
"To Sir, With Love"
The time has come
For closing books; and long last looks must end
And as I leave,
I know that I am leaving my best friend
A friend who taught me right from wrong,
And weak from strong -- that's a lot to learn
What -- what can I give you in return?
If you wanted the moon,
I would try to make a start . . . but I
Would rather you let me give my heart
To Sir, With Love

Why is it so hard to make the first move? Why cant I text her or call her even? Why is it freaking hard?! I want to shout out, let everyone knows I miss them and I do care. Yes, they miss me too. Verbally, but not physically processing. One day I came to ask how does it feel to lose someone precious, like your bestfriend. Its not that I dont know how it feels. I felt it. I just want to deny that feeling of mine. Friendships couldnt just fade away like that after going through so much together. I lied to myself. It is fading slowly. I understand their busy and so on but.. One day, I asked for a bestfriend, to love me no matter what happen. Allah gave me Aimullah. He's kind, funny, and was my bestfriend and now still... Im lucky to have him around. Because everywhere I go, I just cant think of anyone else but him. Its only him ive gone out with. ONLY him. When Im with him, I thought i'll be happy enough to have him by my side. I mean, of course I am. Glad, even. Just that, I miss girlfriends moments.

Nineteen

2011-01-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday,

Muhammad Aimullah Bin Abdul Muidz!

Semoga Panjang Umur

& murah rezeki selalu.

I wish you succes in both studies and work.

Make mum and dad proud tau!?

I feel bad not spending time on your 19th birthday together with you.

And I couldnt get you anything too. Argggh.

Im sorryx103028934304709 )=

I promise we'll have fun on Saturday.
I hope I'll get my pockets full soon and get rid of the cold-sickness thing, okay? ^^

WHY YOU SO PRETTY???????!!! WHY?! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh.......

2011-01-12T15:47:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA! Am I? Well, thank you. All thanks to Allah (;

Ask me anything

What was your favorite birthday gift?

2011-01-10T13:54:00.001+08:00

My bantal busuk! (;

Ask me anything

Opportunity No More.

2011-01-10T13:22:00.000+08:00

There goes the second opportunity. I really wanted to go, but I guess its not meant for me. Hmm, and yeah, it feels sucks. Huhu. ): Also, thinking / even listening to this song, really makes me feel more upset about it. The song is actually about love (like whatelse right?). Its okay, I did this for them. I guess they are in short of money, so .. yeah.

Takutlah Mati.

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1803473249340&oid=125074957541518&comments

Antique Old Days.

2011-01-09T00:50:00.000+08:00

Okay, this is weird. I tried to vlog. Its fun but i dont seem to like the way I talk, because I stutter alot. Hahaa. Creepy me. Maybe, i'll do vlog in another account. Haha. Well, I thought of doing it now, today's post as I was lazy to blog about something. And then, here I am, indeed, blogging. -.-

Thing is, Ive been looking at the old photos and the photo that touched my heart most was this!

If you notice, its 40 students there, 6 girls and 34 of them are boys. Hahaha. I remember those childrens' day, where the guys gotten themselves chocolates (i think), but we girls, got ourselves the female-saviour-tissue (if you know what I mean)! Yup, the guys were laughing at us with their minds out, and so were some of the girls, some even shook their head. And I was like trying to be cool to know what it is because I dont! I went blurr, and I almost open up the wrappings and everything! I dont know what it is until after the drama moment. I came to ask my girlfriends. I was laughing hard then as soon as I knew! Hahaha, I was so lost. i cant believe I do not what it is in the age of 12.

There were times in class, the guys like to mix and match the girls. And I remember I had this unmature crush on this guy. Whaever he does, just makes me giggle, giggle, giggle. To think back, I was kinda "into" him. Hahhaah. It was very funny. And I remembered, I was too conscious of what he was doing, that I tripped a little over my school bag that was on the floor. I think he saw that. He sat infront of me, so, Im guessing hard that he did. That day, I wished I were better dead. Hahha. I also remembered, I was being naughty in class. I call this, Naughty-Notice Technique! Hahaha. Like, when you get scolded, or be laughed, you'll get attention. Cool technique, old me! Haha, but seriously, its not cool to do that if I were at this age. Hahaha! No way.

What else? Oh! You know Cat & Mouse Catching game dont ya? Of course, its the most popular game till now. Hahah, boys VS girls. It was fun. We run around the school, and there was this part that my girl friend was trying her best to catch this fellow.. and this fellow, luckily didnt get caught until his uniform shirt got torn by thorns of some plants Hahah! Sobs. Im guessing he has gotten himself scoldings from his mum. XD

Yup, we were pretty much childish as ever, even though we call ourselves big brothers and sisters in the school. Maklomlah, da primary6. Hahaha! Hmm. I love those days. I miss you boys' crap. And my girlfriends accompanion days. Too bad we missed the Raya'10 reunion.

Slack.

2011-01-06T09:30:00.004+08:00

I think Im considering of going for the Hongkong Trip during March holidays. Bowling thing, a sports exchange programme infact. They say it will be around $700, flight, hotel, 2D2N foods, bowling games payment is included. Haha. Trip is from 10-13 March. I really want to go, but hopefully my PSEA account can help up. I am lucky to have this opportunity again. Remember my secondary school's CCA? I got a chance to go Hongkong, but unfortunately didnt get to go due to the school budget. stupid. -.-"

Asyik fikir holiday jek aku. Hmm, results for SEM2 MST is out. I didnt get to improve. Slack a little bit. JAVA and Math, A. NWKSS 76, so i guess its B+. Hmm. Bad news is, my FE. Hais, just pass lei. Sad sia. But nevermind, everything that has happened serve me right. True? I wasnt that prepare for the subject. Was complacent that period. So, how's yours?

Btw, it's Nadzirah's 14th birthday.
Happy Birthday!

Present kau belum kite wrap lagi! -.-

makan@sp

2011-01-03T15:27:00.001+08:00

Back in school. Dragged myself to be early. Mission Accomplised. Still praying hard to have As' for previous exams. So far, I know Java I got A. So, alhamdulillah. Hehe. Yesterday, got the chance to spend time at orchard again with boyfriend. Double yay! haha.

Having Java class now. And everyone is talking about BurgerKing that is opening sooon. Yesssahh! Powerrr! Next delifrance, LJS, Popeye, Wendy's, Breadtalk, Sweettalk Seoul Garden etc ... wah power, SP become food center. Maybe can add some epic, nubox, Apple retailer shops. Then soon got Giant, Courts, Ikea, Best Denki, Sheng Siong, EC house etc.. Best Poly in SG, become the best shopping centre ever. HAHAHAHA. Kekek sia. Gemuk juge aku ni. Makann aje. Hahaha. Enjoyy! Lol.

2011-01-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

I think Im sick. Ohh. Ive been getting stomach aches alot these 3 days. And please mummy, I dont feel like going school on Monday. Oh mann!

For the first time, in many music videos of Katy Perry's. I like this the most. Hahah.

Cukup kain and effects baik. Much much beautiful now. *Thumbs up*

Despite that, I am a little addicted to the song, Dog Days Are Over. To me, it just reminds me like its the end of the world. Gosh, and the music video is sure creepy. Hahhaha! And bf went KL today. So, I have to deal with loneliness again. Spent the day at JP with family.

xoxo

Just average |

2010-12-29T20:02:00.004+08:00

Its been awhile not blogging. I miss letting my feelings out. Its too private here. hmm. Basically, just went Langkawi. Mum and Dad were planning for cruise holiday on the coming march holiday. Back few weeks when I heard about it, I was extremely excited.. but now, the feelings kinda gone. I dont feel like going. Hmm..

Im enjoying nature. Have you ever found yourself a great spot that makes you feel like you are watched or listened by the world even though you are just standing still and doing nothing? Or listening and watching the world that would make you cry at that spot? I have. 2 places, infact. Im not sure how to explain further.. but the further I went thinking about peace or whatelse, the closer I feel Allah. And sometimes it just makes me cry. Why? Manusia tidak pernah lepas daripada dosa. Astaghfirullah. Someone told me, "The stronger your iman, the harder you fall." I understood that, however, its so hard to keep back up. I know im not perfect, and I dont think Im that strong to keep up my ukhrawi even. Insyallah I can.

I miss going out with Asen Masen! Bila mahu keluar huh?! And before, I promised myself to have fun shopping during the end of year sales. Unfortunately, no money. Too baadd. Geramm. Planned to go iceskating with family pon tak jadi. Tsk. Well, daddy remembered, but I guess he's in a pokai season. Cant blame him. We spent too much during december holiday at Langkawi. Haha! Kesian dad. Even my allowance for this month was cut half. Hahaha. Takpe la, sekali sekale kurangkan allowance to help mum and dad. Lols. Okay peeps, update again soon.

Love at first sight

2010-12-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

In the previous post, Ive mentioned that I will not go shopping. The next morning, dad gave each of his children 100bucks to shop and have fun and whatever. I know to some of you 100bucks is not a big deal at all. But it is to me in so much ways, alhamdulillah. Heee. That day, we all went to Marina Square. Main reason we were out was to get mum a pair of shoe. During the "intermission", sisters went to John Little. We had this feeling that we will find something there. And we did. Some long sleeve tops and cool jackets/cardigans. Then we all head to burgerking. hehehe. After mum got herself a serious heels at Naturalizer shop. Gosh, they are comfy and veryyy expensive. LOL.

At about 8pm, we went to bugis. Mum wants a white heels then. We shop while we can, rushing through time. Bugis streets first, then bugis junction. Haahha. Well, basically thats all. I got myself some tops and shoee! hehe. Nice. Enjoy the pictures! ^^

Rabak kan gambar! So not glam.

Okay this is random. Today, I feel so much thankful that Singapore doesnt snow. Countries that have winter season, are seriously facing disasters now. Alhamdulillah, can say that we are at the safe side of earth. Good night readers!

MST done |

2010-12-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

Yeah, MST done. But I think I screwed up 2 out of 4 papers. Hopefully I wouldnt get anything that is worst than what I expected. Well, pray harder now. Hmm. Now that MST for sem2 is done, 3weeks vacation here I go. I am going to do so many outdoor events, probably spending alone most of the time. I seriously need a break. MST revision were such a rush. But, these rushes kinda make me eat well. I think I am finally feeling hungry at the right time. Not like previously, every 2-3 hours, I'll go hungry. Hmm, keep it up mir.

Next, speaking of vacation and spending on outdoor events. I will be having family BBQ at two different places tomorrow. One with my dad's side at EastCoastPark, the other is with my mum's side at Changi. I am unsure why but I just want to spend time alone these few days. Just without anyone around, without anything to think of, without phones, etc. But of course with my shirts on! Please, now dont misunderstand me yeah? I used to push people away from me, Im not sure whether I am still doing it or not. To phrase it up, it sounds... pushy. Haha, like rude, somehow. Truthfully, I didnt happen to realise it. Until one day, when I got to mingle with everyone, I just want more space for me to do something or everything freely, openly. I would call that running away from people.

Humans are typical and feelings are so complicated. Okay! I miss being alone. There, I said it, directly. Sometimes, I just want to dump my phone in a toilet bowl. Or force dad to buy a device that only have games apps in it. Nothing else. And when suddenly you are lonely, u do not know what to do. Because you are too used to have been doing this and that... blah blah. Headaches due to reading my post today right? Especially this part? Its okay. Im just shooting what's currently is in my mind now. Though, I miss you. Im sorry.

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Grr, hopefully tomorrow will be fun. Sis, please dont make me play in any games if possible, please. Moodless. Besides that, appreciate your effort on everything that you have organise on.

What am I planning for 3weeks holiday? Hmmm...

Bowling?
IceSkating?
MovieeeMarathon?
(I couldnt go shopping this time. well, again -.-)

That was what I could only think of, pretty much, i guess. So anyone interested. And ohh! I thought of asking my gfs out, atleast a day. But, Im afraid the hopes got me disappointed again. I am never a good organizer, probably. Hmm. Okay readers, its late, and I need to pack some things to prepare for tomorrow familiesss event. Pfft, good night.

shhhh |

2010-11-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

I love shoes. Actually not shoes, really. I prefer flip flops or slippers. Next, heels! I have no idea why everytime whenever I walk pass a shop, and saw pretty, yet simple heels, through the glass panel of the shop, I'll be.. woooaah. I wish to have it. Im a person like shoes to die for. Heels, I meant. Heh. Ive watched Sex and the City 2. Hehe, shh. I know Im a little bit underage but, can't help it. I just love to see the clothes and shoes. Sooo fashionista <3

Im shy to say this out loud. I want to be a fashion designer! Although I know my drawing sucks, and might have a little bad taste of fashion, looking at diffferent style of heels, just makes me love fashion so much. Im shy to wear heels for like everyday wear but I guess Im afraid that I'll disgrace the meaning of Fashion!

Studying Etiquette & Professional Image for gems, makes me realise that I am a classic dresser. Well, there's three more types: Natural, Dramatic and Romantic. I belong in the classic type. Simply means, I like to dress simple, clean but elegant. Wears minimal make up and accessories, favours neutral colours. And most importantly, fashionable but never faddish! I didnt actually realise that, but to think about it, its true. Haha! Cool uh my gem. Finally, the portfolio for this gem is done and has already being handed in. Feels sooo good!! Next, MST for this sem is coming! grrr. Not again. Spoil my mood ajee! Boohoo.

"My Kind Of Perfect"

2010-11-24T23:53:00.001+08:00

"My Kind Of Perfect"
I was thinking about ya
I drew a little picture
But some things you cant put on paper
Like it like shooting stars?
I write songs on guitar
Got more things to do than stare at a mirror
I know, I know, she's gotta be out there, out there
I know I know she's gotta be...

Maybe I'm wrong
Maybe I'm right
Maybe I just let you walk by
What can I say
Maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one? Is it today?
Will I turn the corner
See my future in a beautiful face
Maybe.
She's anything but typical
A sweet surprise
No matter what, she's looking at the bright side
It's gonna be worth it
Cause that's what love is
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect
I know, I know, she's gotta be out there, out there
I know, I know, she's gotta be...

They say give it time
Give it time, and it will fall in line
But I keep wondering how and when
And why I haven't met you
But maybe I'm wrong
Maybe I'm right
Maybe I've known you all my life
Is she the one? Is it today?
Will I turn the corner
See my future in a beautiful face
Maybe
I'll keep searching for my kind of perfect.

I dont know why, but everytime I listen to this song and sing the lyrics out, kept me thinking. Am I following the fate that suppose to be, or have I been against it all this while. I dont wish to rebel fate. Ya Allah, if I am, Im sorry. But also, if its our fate, is it even possible that we can change it? To think about it deeply, it makes it more confusing. Hmmm, nevermind.

My eyes and my body has been very tired each day. I got to regain more energy. Must sleep well, eat well too. A big impact whenever prayer calls. The laziness, aiyoo, cannot tahan. I got to catch up with myself sometimes. Week 6 over soon. 2 more weeks and MST again. I feel so bad as I think my gpa for this term will flop! I am dyingg! Grr. Time, please slow down!! Must buck up quick. Ya Allah, give me strength.

Okay fellows, I got to go sleep. Tomorrow 8am class AGAIN! Sighhh. Goodnight!

ps/ and guess who got the SWEETHEART AWARD!? Me!! (from sweetheart of course) TY!^^

Another Fairytale

End of Semester 4

One More Chance

Allah Rabbal Baraya ^^

Spark ^^

Independence from Imperfection

Without words

Wisdom

Hmmm

Chin Up

So Far So Good

Salam rindu

Laugh is my Medicine |

Just lovely |

Happy Twenty-First!

Friday

Giant

Short update

Hijab.

He is the Creator.

League

What a Hottiie

If we hold on together

Canon, Delighting You Always

back again

holiday stress

"Peacock cheers"

Random

Damn

Shumbody!

Ease at heart..

Nothing more to say

If you could ask God one question what would it be?

Aww.. not

My paradise

Just so you know

All praises to Allah

Plain |

Wednesday

Asperger's Syndrome

HARRY.SHUM.JR

insyaAllah (:

#8 Okay last last questions, IN *******ESSAY FORM*******! What do you look for in a partner? (:

My Diary is my most favourite book

Warm

Bawa Mak pergi Zoo ^^

Twins

If you could live in any house you wanted to, what would it look like?

If you could live in any house you wanted to, what would it look like?

All In A Column |

Hong Kong

How would u like to kill the person that u hate most?

Like a child

What's one thing that most people don't know about you?

Humaira

Quote

tell me your fave lepak spots :B heh

Back on writing

How do you prevent yourself from being complacent??

If you could have any car you wanted, what kind of car would you get?

What's your favorite quality about yourself?

Freaking cool!

Which do you think you'll choose? A deserted world full of knowledge resources, or A world filled with love everywhere?

Forgotton

"Cukuplah Tuhan Bagiku"

what do you think of your boyfriend?

Harmonica

Ice Skating |

Reports |

If your heart is bleeding and your eyes are sick of crying, what would you do?

Mountains

Hello awesome you!. <:

favourite number

Would you rather vacation at the beach or in the mountains?

Secondary Hits!

Dont keep your distance

Nineteen

WHY YOU SO PRETTY???????!!! WHY?! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh.......

What was your favorite birthday gift?

Opportunity No More.

#8 Okay last last questions, IN ESSAY FORM! What do you look for in a partner? (: